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“He’s cool,” I said with a shrug. Something in my stomach twisted when I thought about Félix, but not in a bad way. It was more in a way I didn’t want to look at too closely. Instead, I was going to ignore it. Besides, Félix was heading off again soon, so there was no point in getting attached to him. “He’s older,” I added. “I think he’s Portuguese, and he does various things in business, mostly investments, I think. We don’t really talk about it. Oh, and he’s got a great dick.”

“You’re so gross! I didn’t need to know that!” Dani grabbed a cushion from the sofa and smacked me with it. I tried to grab it but missed badly and nearly face-planted the floor.

“You asked.”

“Not about that. You’re such an asshole!” She smirked at me, and I knew I wasn’t going to like what was about to come out of her mouth. “That’s why you’re antsy then. You need a good dicking.”

“Oh my fucking God! You are banned from saying that,” I spluttered while Dani laughed.

“You’re not denying it,” she said. “That’s why you’re extra shitty atSmash Bros.today. It’s because you’re thinking about his dick.”

“I am not.” At least I hadn’t been until Dani had brought Félix up. Now my mind was casually reminding me of the last time we’d hooked up. He’d fucked me on the armchair in his hotel suite, making me bounce in his lap while he’d edged me and whispered filthy words, telling me how good I looked on his cock.

“You totally are,” Dani said gleefully. “You should message him. Get him to come over and do you.”

“Fuck off.” We were both grinning like idiots now. Every last bit of my worry about telling Dani had faded away. I was almost surprised at how easy it had been to tell her.

“Who’s this girl then?” I asked. I leant my elbow on the sofa and rested my head in my hand, looking up at her. Dani’s face broke into a smitten smile.

“Her name’s Kat. She works at the bookstore near my flat.” Dani twisted one of her braids around her finger. It was a nervous habit she’d had for as long as I’d known her. “She’s super cute and shy, and she’s got this smile… it just lights up the room.” Dani sighed. “And she always wears bright colours. She’s like a walking rainbow, and I just… The first time I saw her, I couldn’t stop staring. It took me months to even ask her out for coffee. I was so fucking nervous because she’s so cute and sweet and so fucking smart. She curates the young adult section, and she has this huge focus on books for LGBTQ kids. She’s amazing.” Dani bit her lip, the biggest smile curling her lips. My heart felt like it was about to burst because I was so fucking happy for her. Dani deserved someone who was just as amazing as she was.

“She sounds fucking perfect for you,” I said. “Can’t believe you were nervous though.”

“She’s perfect, J. Like, I’ve never met anyone like her. Do you want to see a picture?”

“Sure.” Dani grabbed her phone off the cushion next to her, unlocking it and holding it up for me to see. It was a selfie of the two of them squished together on Dani’s sofa, smiling widely. Kat was cute, and I could see why Dani liked her. But what really got me was Dani’s face. I’d never seen her look so happy and at ease before.

“She’s cute,” I said. “You dating then?”

“I think so… I mean, I haven’t formally asked her yet, but she stays around at mine a lot, and we make dinner together. She’s even started coming to the gym with me a couple of times a week. She’s never really done much fitness stuff before, so we’re working out together so I can help her.” That nearly made my jaw drop. If Dani was letting someone work out with her, then it had to be serious. It was adorable watching her get flustered about whether or not she and Kat were dating. It made something in my chest twinge. I ignored it.

I didn’t have time for a relationship. I didn’t want a relationship. It would be a distraction I didn’t need, and I wasn’t going to risk it, whatever my heart might be trying to tell me.

Sex was a different matter though.

Chapter Seven

#cockandcooking

Jordan

When Dani left a couple of hours later to head over to her parents’ house, I couldn’t resist pulling out my phone.

JordanWant to come over?

FélixSure. Your house?

JordanYeah

FélixPerfect. I’ll be there in 30 minutes

JordanGood. I need you to fuck me!

FélixSo fucking bossy ;)

I knew I was bossy in bed, but I didn’t see it as a bad thing. I knew what I wanted, and I got it. Besides, Félix seemed to love it when I got all demanding.

I looked around my living room. It wasn’t too messy, since Dani and I had mostly just chilled on the sofa, and I was fairly tidy most of the time. Not that we’d be in here much. My bedroom was fine too. I double-checked the bed was made, even if we were going to ruin it in five minutes, and that I had supplies. There was no way I was missing out on getting fucked because I’d run out of lube.

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