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He is desperately fighting his feelings. And I'm desperately powerless over him.

"So don't put me out of your mind. Don't stop thinking about me. Don't stop hugging me and kissing me."

"I can't, Amelia. I just can't."

He looks at me one last time and walks away. I ignore the pain in my heart, even though I have no right to. I ignore the anger coursing through my veins. I ignore the urge to throw myself after him.

There are a few hours left in the shift. I go back to my room, continuing to read the material and continuing to ignore the tears that are dripping from my eyes and flooding the book.

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"Amelia," Edith, one of the nurse who works here, opens the door, "Mr

Jonson is waiting for you in his office."

I nod. My heartbeat is racing, thousands of thoughts are running through my head about what I could have done wrong, and I don't want to lose this internship.

I walk down the corridor, and although the distance from the nurses' station to Mr Jonson's office is not long, it seems like an eternity. I look at the pictures on the walls, trying to capture every last stroke in my memory, as this is probably my last day here.

I have already said goodbye to everyone in my mind, although I can't say that I have made many friends here, but I have got used to this hospital.

I stop in front of the door, take a deep breath, and knock.

"Hi, Amelia," Mr Jonson smiles, but then his smile disappears.

My heart falls into the abyss. He indicates that I should sit down, and I obey him.

"Did I do something wrong?"

"No, I would like to ask you this, Danylo Bondar refused to work with you in the same shift, did you have a fight? Or was there another reason?"I'm speechless.

But then I exhale, I'm not being fired.

Wait. What?

Did Danylo refuse to work with me?

"I don't know," I finally say, "I don't think anything like that happened."

"He asked me to do it, Amelia, very strongly. Is there something wrong?"

"No, to be honest, I don't know what the reason is, maybe we just didn't hit it off."

"Okay," he nods, "If you need anything, you can always talk to me." "Thank you," I force out a smile.

When I went to the nurses' station hoping to see Danylo, his things were gone.

We almost made a mistake. We almost broke the rules. We almost became the biggest sinners. But how can I atone for a sin I never committed?

Chapter 19

As I promised the girls, we would spend this weekend together, so now I'm sitting in a short dress in one of the clubs, feeling terribly uncomfortable, and smiling at two strange guys who have already joined us.

It's only ten o'clock at night, but the air smells heavy with alcohol and sweat.

"What's your name?" one of the guys asks and points at me.

I don't know how noticeably I rolled my eyes, but the fact that he didn't take it back means that, not so noticeably.

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