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"I didn't think about it that way."

"If you have a moment of panic, stop. Don't let her see it. You have to be the rock because she can't be. She's a wash of hormones that make no sense and all the sense at the same time. Your job is to calm her down, and then you freak out when you're alone."

Psycho chuckles. "And then what?"

"Call me. If you have that moment of panic, call me. I'll help, and I can do this. If it's out of my depth, I'll call my mom. She's done this three times. But Lex needs things off her plate right now, and I promise, I can handle this."

Slipping his backwards baseball cap off, he runs his hand over his bald head. "What do you think's going on?"

"Something with Zane. Or maybe Lane. He's been MIA for weeks now. It's gotta be bad, though. You can see the toll it’s taking on my wife."

"Who else knows?"

"Jennings. Maybe VP. Zane hasn't been on a run since I've been back, and Jennings's cut mine down, too. Which has me freaked out in its own right because it means he wants me around for Lex. If he's worried about her, I sure as shit have to be."

Both look out at the dark sky filled with clouds that block out the stars. "Do you think it's Lane?"

"It would make the most sense. I just don't know what."

"Maybe she's sick again."

"I thought about that, but others would have noticed, right? I mean, if she's going through treatments, she's probably going to show it. There's no way the women in this club could keep that type of secret."

Psycho shrugs. "That's a fair point. They can keep secrets from us and when it comes to us, but not so much about each other. Unless they're Lex or Lacey. Plus, like you said, it'd show. Maybe she's pregnant again. It could be a really difficult pregnancy with lots of risks, and she doesn't want people to know in case something happens. I can completely understand that."

"That could be it. I just wish Lex would tell me. I wanna help her. It's killing me to watch her barely keeping her head above water. And then this shit with Felicity hasn't made it any easier."

"I missed that one. What shit with Felicity? They aren't friends?"

Laughing, Colt shakes his head and tells him about all the drama, including Gracie being pregnant at sixteen without sharing who the father is. He stares wide eyed as it all comes out, and sick smile on his face.

"Damn, seriously? Ky fucked his girlfriend's sister?"

"Felicity was his ex at the time, technically. I have no idea what Vicky wrote in that diary, but it was enough to have Felicity that pissed."

"She and Lex had issues before, though?"

He nods. "Yeah, there was a meeting with the Griffin's Beach women, and a good number of them wanted to bolt when the shit was happening with the Slashers. Take the kids, change their names, and completely abandon the men."

"No shit?"

"No shit. Felicity was on the side of leaving. Lex was on the side of telling them they're all being fucking idiots. I guess it got heated, and Tess is still proud of Lex's response. It was beautiful, man. We'll have to have her say it to you when things settle down because it was something about her being born into this where Felicity married into it. Oh, and if she wants to fuck, she'll find out. Something like that."

Laughing, he nods our head. "Sounds like our girl."

"I didn't even tell you the most explosive part. Felicity had the gall to come into the clubhouse last night and took a swing at Lex. It took Ky and me both to get her off of Felicity, then Felicity was stupid and told Lex she didn't have balls. So Lex put her on blast. Secrets galore."

His jaw drops. "Did she have an accident and hit her fucking head? Who the fuck tells Lex she doesn't have balls?"

"I have no idea what the fuck happened to her, but she seems to have lost all sense of reality. She had the old lady meeting secret put out there, and I think there are a few uncomfortable conversations being had still with some of them. And only Felicity is to blame. She poked the bear, and the bear bit her damned head off."

"She of all people should know not to fuck with Lex."

"Oh, the best part? Jennings kicked her out. Said she only wanted problems, and she was told to leave. Of course, Lex felt guilty afterwards."

"She deserved it!"

Colt chuckles. "You know that. And I know that. But Lex still feels like she betrayed someone because she lost her temper. No one can feel guilt quite like my wife."

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