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"Hey," Felicity says as she walks over to the couch.

Lex looks up at the brunette she once considered one of her best friends and shakes her head. "I do not have the energy to fight with you. Not today, Felicity. Please."

"I don't want to fight. I come in peace. Can I just... sit?"

Nodding, she waves her hand over the spot Margaret vacated. "Sure."

"Here." Felicity hands her a small, hardcover notebook. "I have the page and part you need to read marked."

"What is this?" she asks, opening to the marked page. "I have to admit that I'm glad Lex is in Arizona because I know Ky won't be able to stop himself from telling her. And she would kick my fucking ass. She's the only person besides my mother that I'm terrified of. I'll hide it every time, but if it came down to it, Lex could kill me. Her brother has made her so hard that she'd take out a grown man two feet taller than her before she'd ever admit defeat. And her love of my sister is the only one that rivals mine. And Zane's. How Zane hasn't completely hardened Lex, I'll never know, but I'm glad she's a fierce protector of Felicity. I've seen it, and she doesn't tell people. God, I hate that I admire that curly bitch. Another Little Miss Perfect.

I don't think I have to worry about Lex telling Felicity. Just like Ky and me, Lex would never want to hurt her. She's the only real friend Felicity's ever had, and I wish I had a Lex in my life."

"That's from Vicky's diary. This is how I found out about her and Ky. Mom sent them to me. Thought you could use a smile. My sister was scared of you."

Lex giggles and nods. "It seems she knew I was your friend, but you didn't."

"I knew. I was just... mad."

"Look, I’m sorry for outing your secrets like I did. I never planned to do it, but I lost my temper. You caught me on another day of Zane berating me, and I just couldn't go another round. It's not a good excuse, and it wasn't right. I'm sorry, Felicity."

"Hey, you warned me, and I pushed. And I'm the one who should be apologizing. If you'd told me about Ky and Vicky, I think I would have hated you for telling me. And I hated you for not telling me. I basically just hated you, and I have no good reason for it. Nothing I did was fair to anyone, and I realized it's because there's something in me that's not quite right. But I'm working on it."

Smiling, Lex hands the diary back to her. "Do you think you'll ever be able to forgive him?"

"I needed him to forgive me. We made up. Colt and Lex style."

She laughs and leans back. "There's really no better way to make up with your husband. In my opinion. I think I could find at least a few gals in here who would agree, too."

"I need to know what you need from me, Lex. To forgive me, too. I don't think what I did for Ky will work for you, although I don't think either of our husbands would consider it cheating as long as they got to watch. And maybe participate."

Snorting, Lex bends over as she laughs, her hands gripping her sides. "Probably not. But I tried that once in college, and it's just not for me. Nothing personal."

"You did?" Felicity gapes at her, which only makes Lex laugh harder.

"It was college. You have to try everything at least once. I did say no to meth, though. That just seemed like a bad idea."

Felicity chuckles. "Probably a good call. Now, I'm not as experienced as you are, apparently, but I do owe you."

"We're square."

"No, we're not. I was horrible. You're not a shitty friend; I am. I had no idea Lane was even sick, and I should have. My world got so busy and my own drama took over. I thought Ky was just trying to get me to talk to him when he told me I needed to be here for the wedding, and I felt like it was still a ploy until I saw her. And you."

"I just want my friend back. The old lady who squares up to stomp club bunnies with me and teach them lessons. Someone who has my back as much as I have theirs, and I’m sorry if I made you believe I didn't have yours because I always did."

Taking her hand, Felicity fights her tears. "I know you did. I was being stubborn, and I want my friend back, too. Especially now that we're old ladies to the highest officers."

"How the hell did that even happen? It feels like a new era. I mean, I've never known the club without Jennings as President. It's weird, but I'm so proud of them."

"You're staying here, then?"

"We're staying. I might make a trip to Summerville to bring the bunnies here to show these bitches how to fucking act. I loved those girls."

"Seriously?"

Lex laughs and fills her in on the respectful girls in Summerville. The brunette looks as though she's being read a fairy tale.

"I don't believe it."

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