Page 25 of Laying it Bare Biker Style: Ryder

“Fuck, Sage. You fit melike a glove. You feel perfect.” He pressed his forehead againstmine for a moment. “I had to take a breather so I don’t blow rightnow. Your pussy is gripping me so tightly and it feels so amazing,I need to get some control. I don’t want to blow yet. You need tocome again first.” He shuttled his dick in and out of me inmeasured thrusts, each one grazing my clit and sending bolts ofelectricity outward and then rushing back to my core. “Your pussyis rippling along my dick. Are you going to come again? I think youare. Soak my cock, Sage.” He pumped into me in harder quickerplunges.

My pussy trembled and then clenchedhim in hot spasms as waves of pleasure shot along my nerve endingstriggering my orgasm to bowl over me and I detonated.

“Fuck, Sage. You feltamazing squeezing my finger but your pussy walls clamping down onmy dick, so fucking good.” Two thrusts later, he stilled andreleased a low growl as his hot semen splashed my walls. Droppingto the bed beside me on his back, he curled his arm around my waistand tugged me on top of him so that I was half draped across hischest. He ran his fingers lightly up and down my spine in smallcircles. “Thank you for allowing me to worship your body. You werebetter than perfect.”

Coming down from my enormous high, thefamiliar feelings of sadness brushed over me. Damn hormones. Iwanted more and didn’t understand why I couldn’t have it. We seemedpretty perfect together. Maybe in time something more would growbetween us. But it was as if he had built a stone wall with abarbed wire fence around his heart to keep everyone out. Althoughwas it really that bad what I had here with him? Considering what Icame from? I should have been ecstatic and basking in the pleasureRyder had just ripped from me countless times. Instead my mouth hadto open and not to give him a blow job. “Would you tell me whathappened with Jensen? Help me understand.”

He stiffened underneath my body andhis hand halted.

Daring to take a peek, I tucked myhand under my chin and gazed up at him.

Staring at me with an unreadableexpression, his mouth tightened and his jaw ticked.

Shit. I spoiled a perfectly wonderfultime because my mouth just spewed whatever it felt like, wheneverit felt like. And I just ruined this little thing – whatever it was– between us.

Five

~Ryder~

I pressed my lips to Sage’s foreheadto reassure her I wasn’t pissed. I could read in her face sheworried she had pushed too far with her question. I never shouldhave had sex with her, but I couldn’t completely regret it. Who wasI kidding? I didn’t regret it one bit. I’d never had an orgasm asstrong as that one before and her flavor on my tongue had me dyingfor another taste . . . or several. But she had real emotionsinvested in this and it killed me I was playing with her heart andhead. So the least I could do was offer her some sort ofexplanation. Maybe it would help her feel better about thesituation if she knew where I was coming from.

Wrapping my arms tightly around herback, I hugged her closer.

She lay her cheek against myheartbeat. “I’m sorry. My hormones, all of them, I’m going to blamethem and my mouth that just seems to run when I’m around you. Youdon’t owe me anything. You’re already doing more thanenough.”

My chest was sweaty from our eroticworkout, but I was pretty sure a few warm tears mixed in with thewetness on my skin. It broke my heart, but I didn’t know how to bewhat she needed me to be. “Jensen was a girl who had been a memberof Pyro Devils. I met her at a bar one night and we hit it off. Shewas funny and cocky and beautiful. I didn’t know she belonged totheir club at first. We went out a few times after that before Ifound out she belonged to one of our enemy clubs. She convinced meshe didn’t hide it from me to be deceitful, she just wanted thechance to get to know me and was looking for a way to get out oftheir club and really liked being with me. We dated for about sixmonths and I told her I loved her and gave her my trust. I wasgoing to give her my vest the night everything went to shit.Apparently she was orchestrating a seize on our club to steal ourweapons and anything else of value they could get their hands on.”A low growl ripped from my chest, but I had to tamp it down. Sagewas nothing like her and didn’t deserve my anger.

“We got fake intel that adrug deal including the cartel and rival gangs was going down nearone of the community parks where a lot of families and kids hungout. We were worried about innocents being killed in the crossfireso we sent most of our guys down to handle the situation. Copsusually handle things like that, but we wanted to be extra back upsince the cartel was supposedly involved. We left two of our guysand a handful of Prospects back at our club. Once Jensen sent wordthat our club had been mostly cleared out, a swarm of Pyro Devilsconverged on our property. The attack ended in a gunfight where oneof our guys was shot and almost died. I still have trouble movingpast the guilt of her betrayal. One of my brothers almost lost hislife because I was too stupid to realize she was a devious cunt.All of that because she wanted to find a way to earn the title of‘Old Lady’ in that club and it didn’t matter to whom; she waslooking to prove herself, no matter the cost.”

Sage traced her fingertip up and downmy chest in little circles. “None of that is your fault. That isall on her.” She was quiet for a moment. “Do you believe I’m likeher, Ryder? I did come from that same club.” Her soft voicetrembled.

“Fuck no, Sage. Not atall.” Shuffling on the bed, I sat up and pulled her onto me so thatshe straddled my lap. Her pussy brushing against my dick was not agood idea at the moment, but I needed her to see my truths. Takingher face in my hands, I pulled her gaze up to mine. “You arenothing like her. You have a pure heart and I’m so sorry I’m notdoing anything to protect it from me. But that’s the thing, Sage.Because of what she did to me, I don’t have it in me to let go andlet someone in again and love them. But I care about you. Sofucking much. I promise you that. And I won’t treat you like shit.I haven’t been with anyone else since I met you and I don’t want tobe with anyone else. But this is all I can offer you. Can you beokay with that? If not, I understand.” But fuck it was going to bedifficult not having her body again. And yes, that did make me aselfish prick.

A few more tears spilled down hercheeks. “You’ll just be with me?”

“I promise. And you’ve gotmy vest.”

Her eyes lit up with emotions Icouldn’t quite identify because they didn’t look like theynaturally went together. Hope mixed with resignation, maybe. “Whatif things grow awkward between us since we’re like a little morethan friends with benefits? I mean is this going to be awkward,actually sleeping together? It’s not like if we don’t work out,I’ll just move back out. But I guess I could figure something outas long as I was still able to work.”

“Don’t ever worry about mejust kicking you out. First of all, Grayson would try to kick myass.” I gave her a goofy grin. “And second, just because you startto find it difficult to handle this because of issues on my end, Iwill not punish you for that. I’ll sleep on the couch or something.We’ll figure it out.” I brushed her hair away from her face. “Andas long as you will be okay with it; it will be fine. Actually itwill work to our advantage to be able to truthfully say we aresleeping together. It will help when we start telling people aboutthe baby.”

“About that.” Ducking herhead, her shoulders sagged.

Shit. She was going to ask aboutgetting rid of it. It was her choice, but I couldn’t help it thatwhen I looked at her I didn’t see her carrying a monster’s baby. Ionly saw Sage carrying a baby. But I would support her no matterwhat.

“I’m going to havemeltdowns about this. I try not to think too hard on it so that Ican try to pretend it’s not because of some horrible incident. Idon’t exactly remember the attack; I just got little snippets inthat nightmare so it makes it a little easier to act as if the babyisn’t a result of that. But it’s not always going to be easy to dothat.”

Thank fuck she hadn’t changed her mindabout keeping the baby. And mercifully she hadn’t had anothernightmare since she started sleeping wrapped up in my arms. And Iintended to keep her there as long as she was comfortable. I didn’twant her to ever have to face those memories again. Tipping herchin up, I kissed her damp cheek. “When you feel yourself beingpulled down a dark hole, reach for me. I’ll be here for you andI’ll help you. And if you’re at work, text me and I’ll come helppull you out. I can catch up on projects later if you need me andI’m not there. And if I’m handling club business and can’t be thereright away, you will have Angel and Misti with you, so lean onthem. They are really good-hearted girls. You don’t have to tellthem the truth. Just blame it on hormones and they’ll nod and cursethe fact that you three were born women and then make you laugh andbe there with you until I can be again.”

Her bottom lip trembled as a freshtorrent of tears cascaded down her cheeks. “It’s okay. These arehappy tears. See, damn hormones.”

Brushing away the wetness with mythumbs, I gave her a warm smile. “Pretend the baby is mine. That iswhat I’m doing. It’s the story we’re telling everyone so we mightas well live it. I know we can’t totally ignore it because we willhave days when we have to deal with the truth of it; you more thanme, I’m sure. And I plan to have my name on the birth certificateif that’s okay with you. I don’t want anyone to ever question it.Besides, the time table works so it’s believable.”

“You want lawfulresponsibility for this baby?” Her eyes widened before she duckedher head against my chest again and my skin grew damp with hertears for a second time. “If things don’t work, down the line, Iwon’t come after you for child support or anything. Thank you,Ryder, but you really don’t owe me anything.” Her tiny body shookwith her sobs.

I kissed the top of her head, notwilling to meet her gaze because I was afraid of what she mightfind in mine. “It has nothing to do with owing anything. We takecare of our own.” And she was mine, at least in the limitedcapacity I was able to provide.

She was quiet for a moment, but thenher breathing evened out. I was going to ask her if she was okaywith sleeping naked tonight, promising I would behave, but I didn’tget the chance. She had fallen asleep on my lap. Emotionally andphysically drained. The physically drained part brought a hugesmile to my face, but the emotionally drained part stabbed me inthe gut to the point I wanted to eviscerate Wasp. Frustrationrolled through me over the fact I would have to buy my time sincewe weren’t exactly sure what we were up against. But once we had agood idea, plans would be made and we would find a way to stop hisclub permanently.

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