His lips pressed to mine brought me back to the moment. “I must not be doing as good of a job as I had thought if I’m giving you time to get back into your head.”

“You’re doing a phenomenal job. Old habits die hard. I’m a difficult case. I’m sorry.”

“Hey, no apologizing for feeling what you’re feeling. We can stop. I mean you will have to release me first.” He wiggled his hips.

The motion sent a flash of electricity to my pussy. I most certainly did not want to stop, no matter what my brain was trying to argue. When a moan slipped past my lips, he smirked.

And just like that, almost all of my anxieties vanished. I had to learn to trust again. And maybe he could be a great place to start. “I want you to make love to me. Is it okay to call it that?” With my emotions in such a jumble, I wasn’t sure I wanted to refer to it as a fucking.

“Fuck yeah. Because I’m loving your body however you will allow me to. You’re sure you’re okay and want me to continue?”

“Yes. You feel amazing inside of me.”

“Brooke, your pussy wrapped around my dick is more mind-blowing than I imagined. You are perfection, Baby.”

Not that I really minded the nickname Princess, but him calling me by my name right now extinguished the remainder of my fears. Swiveling my hips into his groin, expressing my eagerness, was the last little bit of evidence he needed to convince him I was completely in the moment now.

Bracing his forearms on the sides of my head, he rocked his hips into me. His first withdrawals and plunges were measured and unhurried.

“You can speed up, Grayson. I’m okay.” His teasings were driving me insane. Little tingles were erupting all over my body and my pussy was begging for more. At this rate I was going to spontaneously combust. He had me teetering on the edge.

“You feel too good, Brooke. Your pussy is rippling along my cock. The next time you come, you’re going to reach nirvana. I’ll make it so worth it.” After a few more moments of tormenting me with an orgasm just out of my reach, he tilted up my hips, sinking deep with each plunge, and sped up his thrusts. When he hit my sweet spot in rapid succession, bursts of electricity surged out of my pussy to every nerve ending and raced back again. A second later, pulses of pleasure vibrated across my center before culminating in an explosion so intense I blacked out for a moment.

When the darkness receded, I grinned up at a smirking Grayson. “I probably shouldn’t admit this because I know you’re the type to be even cockier when you get a compliment, but I blacked out for a bit.”

“Well as much as I’d like to take all of the credit there; I think it had more to do with being with you. You made things a fuckload better. I’m good in bed; I ain’t gonna lie. But I’ve never had an orgasm like that before. That was so explosive I hope I didn’t burst through the condom. Or shoot it off with my load.”

“I’m on the pill so it would be fine. But holy hell, I thought you didn’t kill innocents.” I shot him a lazy smile. Even my face muscles were exhausted.

“Nah, I’ll always be careful with you.”

And I was really starting to actually believe that was the truth. “As much as I like being connected; you have me a little concerned about your earlier comment. I’m hoping you don’t have to fish the condom out of my pussy. So can we make sure that’s not the case?” I wasn’t sure I could live through that embarrassment and I didn’t even want to think about the alternative of having to head to the ER for removal. I started squirming.

Taking my face into his hands, he kissed my forehead. “I’m sure it’s fine.” Reaching between the two of us, he slowly slid out of me and grasped the end of the condom. “Give me a minute to take care of this. Don’t move.” He slipped from the bed and headed to the bathroom.

“I don’t know that there is one muscle I’m able to use right now. Well, my mouth muscles since I didn’t use those except to release some screams. So they’re not as worn out.”

A moment later, he crawled back in next to me and tugged me into his arms, my head resting on his chest. “I know a way I can wear out your mouth muscles.” His finger drew lazy circles along my spine.

“I’m sure you do. And once I can hold myself upright; I’ll return the favor.”

“Princess, I don’t want you to feel like you owe me anything. I took immense pleasure in indulging myself in your body. Not that I’ll turn down a blow job, but I don’t want you to think it’s expected.” He kissed the top of my head.

“I think I used a bad choice of words there. I didn’t think you would demand anything in return. I just didn’t want to sound like a slut and say that I’d love to suck off your cock.”

“Fuck, Princess.” He hissed. “You’re going to have me hard again and I think you need a breather. Not only from the physical, but the emotional. I don’t ever cuddle afterward but I never had a reason to. The girls knew the score before I headed home with them. But with you, I want it all. So hopefully I don’t fuck this up, but do you want to talk about what was troubling you earlier? I don’t want you to go to sleep with it still bothering you. I’d rather you have sexy dreams about me again.”

“You make it so easy to talk to you. Even when you don’t sound serious; I can tell you are. But to explain my hang ups, I have to start at the beginning and it’s so difficult to talk about losing my mom.”

“Brooke, I don’t want to make you sad especially after what we just shared, but I also don’t want you hurting alone if it’s something you are going to fret over and then not sleep well.”

I burrowed into his chest and he tightened his arms around me.

I released a huge sigh and just dove in. “You know I lost my mom two years ago. I could barely get through my second year of veterinarian school. Losing her crushed me. I didn’t go out with friends anymore. I stayed shelled up in my room anytime I wasn’t in school or working. I could barely make it through the day. And I knew I wouldn’t be able to continue with the program, but I at least wanted to finish the year since I was so close. I had met a guy in vet school, Brad Lofton, and he seemed really nice and was easy to talk to and I thought he was someone I could count on. But instead of being there for me when my life came crashing down on me, I walked in on him with another girl. He could have told me I was too much for him to handle in my slump of depression, but no he had to go behind my back and hurt me even more. We were together for over a year, so how could he do something like that to me? I swore I’d never give myself to another guy. And here you are, making me want to do just that. And I – ”

“Brooke.” With his thumbs, he wiped away the tears I hadn’t realized rolled down my cheeks. “Please look at me.”

Sucking in a deep breath, I lifted my gaze to his. His eyes, a turbulent wash of emotions, none of which I could decipher, settled on mine.