What had I done that said I liked men?
Shit. Was it the zipper thing? The eye-fucking?
I panicked.
“Erm... no.”
He chuckled softly. Wrote something else.
“Remember—honesty, Asher.”
“Sexually active?”
“Does that really matter to a therapist?” I said, leaning hard on the sarcasm.
He paused. Then:
“One, I’m a clinical psychologist. Two, it does when the client is sent to court-mandated therapy for fucking himself with a dildo in a public space,” he said flatly. “So,
sexually active, or do you usually keep yourself company?”
“I—how do you know it was a dildo? I never said—” I stared.
He sighed. “It’s in the court documents, Ash.”
My face flushed. Hard. Fuck.
They were that specific? God, trial was humiliating enough.
“...I just play with myself,” I mumbled, staring at my nail beds.
He hummed and jotted more down.
“What do you usually do when you play with yourself?”
“Is this necessary for therapy? I mean—”
“Asher.”
His voice wasn’t loud. Just sharp. Firm. It made me sit up straight.
“If you want me to sign off on this court-mandated therapy, you don’t question me. Got it?”
He leaned in, locking eyes. I immediately looked away. He was right. He was the therapist, or "clinical psychologist". It was his job to ask. My job to comply.
“Sorry, Doctor.”
“Sir.”
“Sir,” I corrected.
He went back to writing. Then tore a page from his notebook and handed it to me, folded.
“I’ll see you next week. Five p.m. sharp.”
I went to open it, but he grabbed my wrist.
“Not until you get home.”