I didn’t even know him, probably never would, but Iknewif I sent something, he’d reply.
But I couldn’t. So I did the only thing I could.
Asher:Hey. It’s Asher.
It only took a minute. He responded immediately.
And yeah, maybe I got a little giddy seeing how fast he replied.
Felt like a fire lit inside me.
What a loser. Just waiting by his phone?
God… is he secretly a pervert, just dying for me to message him?
Pathetic.
Still, I was lying on my stomach, kicking my feet like some teenage girl because his reply made me feel something.
Kaleb:Hello, Asher. How can I help you?
Lame. So lame.
Asher:You gave me your number.
He was typing. I could see the dots. That weird rush came again.
Blake:Yes, I did. Professional help, remember? So, how can I assist you?
I didn’t want to end the convo. I wanted to talk to him.
Tosomeonewho understood me. Even a little.
Didn’t know what to say, though.
"Hey, Doctor, I’m a loser with no friends. Please chat with me?"
No thanks. Fuck that.
Asher:Nevermind. False alarm.
I typed it. Stared at it.
Deleted it.
I should be honest, right? For once?
Asher:I feel lonely. Without… my boyfriend.
There. Pathetic. Honest. Whatever.
Blake:I’m in the middle of a housewarming party, so I can’t text you.
Oh.
I deflated immediately.
Jesus, of course he had a life. What the hell was I expecting?