Page 18 of Wild Stars

For this very reason.

No one—except maybe Geo—could ever understand that my heartbreak extended beyond matters of the actual heart.Though, I didn’t disclose much else except the fact that it was over and I was leaving the bastard.

Edward broke mytrust.

More than once.

And I let him do it.

I let him hurt me, because I fucking loved him, and all I was to him, was some kink, some scheduled activity.It wasn’t a life with me Edward wanted.It was just...sex to him.Our contract was nothing more than a fucking business proposal.

He made that more than clear, when I found him fucking someone else.

My contract was explicitly clear that while he was under my care, he would abide by my rules, including beingfaithfulto me.

I believed when he signed our contract that he took it as seriously as I did.

Because to me, it wasn’t just akink.He wasn’t just some guy I enjoyed tying up, so I could make him beg for mercy.

He wasmine.

In every sense of the word.

I don’tdorelationships well, mostly because of my singular preferences.Because relationships to me are not fickle, chaotic things I do on a fucking whim.

I need to know when I amgivingmyself, when I amservingmy sub, that I can trust them.Words are just that...words.

I write them all the time, and I know they hold no true weight.

Anyone in the world can tell me they love me.And they do.At shows, on social media posts, at the fucking grocery store.

But ink is eternal.It stains the paper with truth that is irrefutable.It’s trust in black and white, a promise.

That contract was me handing Edward my heart and soul in ink.

I put my career on hold to focus on him.To serve him.

I handed him my black heart on a silver platter.

I moved into his fucking house, for God’s sake, because I thought that was the way things were supposed to go.I thought I’d finally found someone I could settle down with and build a fucking life.

But Edward Haverish makes his own fucking rules, apparently.

I should have split the first time I found him fucking someone else, but I didn’t.

Because I stupidly thought as his Dom, I could correct him and his behavior.I could make him bend and see the err of his ways.That I wasworthyof his attentions.

I thought that I could fix him.

Geo’s smile isn’t knowing, but it’s genuine, and for the moment, that’s enough.I guess.

“Holy shit, what are the fucking odds?”Geo says, his voice ticking up an octave as he rises from his chair.

My gaze follows him and the blood immediately drains from my body when I see him wrap his arms around a rather familiar looking individual.

“Hey man!”Dare says with excitement as Richie waves, smiling at my sister and friends.

“Hey Hailee.”His smile is stupid and lazy, and it irritates me.Also the way he’s looking at my sister is suspicious, but I don’t have time to interject when Geo speaks.

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