Page 14 of Reaper

CHAPTER TEN

REAPER

I pull out of her mouth and lie down beside her, and she tries to fight me when I attempt to hold her.

“God damn it, living dead girl.”

Grabbing her forcefully, I pull her against my chest, the chain and shackles digging into my skin, but I don’t mind it nearly as much as she probably does.

“That was consensual. You asked me for it.”

She rolls her pretty eyes at me, and mutters under her breath.

“Sure it was.”

Bella is quiet and tense, almost like she has no control over her body.

“I want you to be mine.”

She pulls her head back, and stares at me like I’ve lost my mind, and sighs loudly.

“Nico, just kill me. Get it over with. Please.”

Once again, she’s asking for death, and it does two things. It confuses the hell out of me and fucks with my plan. If I give her the choice between being mine or dying, will she choose death?

“Before, you wanted to live, but now you wish to be dead?”

“Yes.”

I gaze into her beautiful eyes, and imagine a world where they don’t exist. Hers are different from the many I’ve seen before. They don’t only cause the tingling in my neck, they hold something I’ve never recognized before. Light. My world is dark. The brightest it gets is a dark gray. She’s like heaven. Some place I’ll never go. My living dead girl might be my only chance to experience the light. I’m aware that I’m like Satan breaking into heaven after he has been castout. I don’t deserve her glow, but that doesn’t make me desire it any less.

Running my fingers down her cheek, I lie to her.

“If I kill you, I have to cut your eyes out first. Losing them isn’t an option for me.”

The most beautiful tears run down her cheeks.

“Is there anything you can give me first?”

I shake my head in confusion.

“What?”

“For the pain. I’m pretty sure that’s going to be excruciating.”

“I don’t have any drugs,” I lie again.

She nods. “Alright. No drugs then.”

The pain in my chest is intense and immediate. Am I so repulsive, that she’d choose brutal pain and death over being mine? I know I’m not a good man, but I never thought I was this bad. I’ve never been good enough for anyone. I knew I wasn’t the choice she’d normally make, but I thought I was a better option than death. I guess I was wrong.

“Do it now, Nico.”

The hurt turns to anger within seconds, and the fucking tingling is back with a vengeance. Rolling her onto her back, and hovering over her, I wrap my hand around her throat and grit through my teeth.

“It would be so fucking easy to end your pathetic existence right fucking now.”

Her beautiful eyes widen, as fresh tears fall, and her bottom lip quivers.

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