Page 18 of Laying it Bare Backstage

She released a sigh while she pondered my question. “Okay. From your third album,Tempest, I’d have to choose “Seizing the Stars” because I love that you talk about going for what you want no matter the obstacles or how out of reach you believe it is and “Needing a Sunrise” because you were singing about dreaming about waking up one day and finding the perfect girl.”

“I’m pretty damn sure I was singing about you. Even though I hadn’t met you yet. You were the girl I was picturing in that song.” Now that I had her, I couldn’t believe how fucking lucky I was to have run into her like I had. The stars must have been aligned last night.

I had been so caught up in intense emotions between talking about losing my mom and being hit with the fact that my heart knew without a doubt that she was mine, before I could stop myself, I blurted, “I’m falling in love with you, Serenity.”

Her eyes went wide again and I silently berated myself.

She was going to sprint from my bed.

Were my Chuck Taylors nearby?

Five

~ Serenity ~

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Wait.What? I knew he cared a lot about me, but this was epic.

“I’m so sorry. I shouldn’t have said that.” He closed his eyes on a deep sigh.

Huh?Excuse me? It was like my chest slammed into a cement wall; my heart stopped and it was difficult to catch my breath. Way to electrify me then a split second later burst my bubble and crush me all in one blow. I didn’t like this emotional roller coaster I was whirling around on. I narrowed my gaze at him. “Why not? Because you didn’t mean it.” I didn’t expect him to, but to have him say it and then take it back threatened to destroy me.

His eyes popped open in alarm. “No, no I did mean it. I’m falling hard and fast.” He snaked his hand around to my nape and rubbed his fingers through my hair. “But I shouldn’t have tossed that at you like that. I know you’re dealing with so much right now. I invited you to my bed with no expectations and then I throw that at you. And I know we’ve only known each other for a day and it’s crazy.”

“If it’s right; I don’t think it’s crazy at all. And I liked hearing those words. You would think with everything, they would smother me with the overwhelming need to run screaming from this room, but they don’t. Ever since I sat down at the café with you and actually gave you a chance, it’s become easier and easier to believe this is real between us. Like I had told you, I’m still working on putting my past where it belongs. But every moment with you pushes me closer to achieving that goal; something I didn’t believe was attainable.” And while a tiny part of me worried I was setting myself up for heartache again, the vastly larger part was too content in the moment and had so many recent thoughts of how protective he had been with me to allow it to invade our perfect paradise. I ran my hand along his jaw and then back into the hair hanging at the side of his face to play with the strands there. “I’m falling in love with you too.”

With the hand at the back of my neck, he tugged me into him and his mouth captured mine in a harsh kiss. When his tongue dove in to tangle with mine, it was a complete devouring. He curled his around mine and then sucked it into his mouth before plunging back in and tasting everywhere. Then he trailed his tongue along my jawline and back to my ear where he gently nipped the lobe. “I want to put my hands and mouth all over you. Can I do that tonight? I promise nothing else. My shorts stay on. But I need to taste you everywhere.”

His words sent shivers racing down my spine. I trusted he would give me everything I was wishing for and a hell of a lot more. But he wouldn’t take anything I didn’t freely give to him. While we had been sharing, lying in his bed, he wormed into my heart effortlessly, because I had granted him access. Now I craved so much more. “What if I want more than that?”

The strangled groan that tore from his lips I was sure was ripped from his toes. “Fuck, I want that so bad especially if you’re sure. But I don’t have any condoms. I haven’t needed them. And when I left this morning to meet you for coffee, I was just hoping to get the chance to hang out with you and get to know you. I wasn’t expecting this. And I wasn’t going to push. Getting this was the furthest thing from my mind.” He leaned back and locked his gaze on mine, his blue eyes burning with lust and if I had to guess a small dose of love as well.

My heart warmed and my lady parts clenched. “Oh my God. I just fell even more in love with you just now. Please, I want everything with you, right now. I’m on the pill and I’m clean. I have always had the guy use a condom and after the shit went down with that asshole,” I couldn’t bring myself to say his name and have it tarnish our night, “I got tested because I didn’t trust that he had been faithful to me. If you’re clean, I’m completely fine with going without one.” My pussy grew wet with the thought and I had to clench my thighs together as I closed my eyes briefly. “Oh, wow, can you imagine how incredible that will feel?” It had been way too long for me and even before that I didn’t have these intense emotions swirling around inside that were sure to ramp the experience up to mind-blowing.

He released a rough growl. “I’m clean too. And I can envision it perfectly. Being with you today, connecting with you in a way I have never done before – with our walls down – has been so fucking incredible. Combining that with me getting the chance to be intimate with you with nothing separating us; it’s going to send me into nirvana. I know you’ve been able to feel my hardness pressed up against you since I crawled into bed. I tried to hide it from you so I didn’t make you uncomfortable, but I know I wasn’t completely successful.” Pushing me to my back, he crawled over my body and pressed the evidence of his failed attempt into my thigh.

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