“It was also why I couldn’t save the team from the two hundred and fifty-first. I was so focused on your numbers, when I figured out theirs was coming from another hot zone I didn’t have enough reaction time. They died, all of them. Because I couldn’t see the numbers fast enough.” He folded his lean muscular arms and stared out into the street.
“Jesus, Spook, you couldn’t have saved them. They were like forty miles away! Dude, there is no fucking way you could have saved them. You can’t carry that burden,” said Flip.
“But I can, and I do. Just like you carry the burden of all the men you couldn’t save,” he said, staring at his friend.
“No one should carry any burdens at all,” said Aislinn. “Do you know how many murders I’ve been a witness to and unable to stop? If I had carried that burden, I would have been committed years ago. Look, I don’t know what happened to us, but I think we all have a good place to start now. More importantly, we have each other. Something a few weeks ago I would have never dreamed could happen. I have a man I love…”
“You love me?” asked Kane.
“Yes, you idiot, I love you. I have a man I love and friends. I feel it in my soul. You are my friends and so much more. Do you know how lonely my life has been? I don’t care what brought us together. I just know that this was supposed to happen.”
“I agree,” said Flip. “Had I known about all of you while we were in the Army, my life would have been very different. This seems natural, all of us being together.”
Kane nodded at his friends and pulled Aislinn in tight for a hug.
“You stay here with Spook tonight,” he said. Aislinn started to argue, but he kissed her, quieting her instantly. “It will be safer if you stay here. Spook will have us on communications. We’ll stop Deborah. Don’t worry.”
Aislinn nodded and watched as the men prepared to leave for the night. Kane kissed her once more as he left the loft. Locking the door, she turned to see Spook, still cross-armed staring at her.
“I’m sorry you had to reveal your secret,” she said.
“I’m not. Thank you, Aislinn,” he said, letting out a long, slow breath. “I feel as though a weight has been lifted from my shoulders.”
Aislinn smiled at him as he turned to focus his attention on the computer screen. She pulled the afghan from the back of the sofa and covered her legs, a chill settling in the apartment. Picking up the book on the coffee table, she tried to read, but sleep crept up on her, and she finally nodded off.
Spook turned to see the pretty woman sound asleep. He smiled and stood, pulling the blanket up under her chin. She looked so angelic sleeping there and so brave. He knew what thoughts must be entering her head as she slept, and although his burden was great, hers was terrifying.
Let’s end this, and I’ll disappear.
CHAPTER THIRTY-FIVE
“Hi, baby,” said the woman, leaning over to reveal unbridled breasts.
Her pink nipples poked through the white silk blouse, her long red fingernails danced up his sleeve. He tried to smile, his expression more pain than passion. Her lips touched his and pressed hard at first but then relaxed.
“What’s the matter?” she asked in an angry tone. “I thought you wanted to play tonight.”
“I do,” he said shakily. “I do. I just, well, the funeral is still fresh in my mind.”
Good cover. Stay calm, Christopher. We’re here.
“Funerals! What a crock! They’re for the living, not the dead. I need a good hard fuck tonight, baby. I need you to really pound me. Can you do that?” she asked, leaning forward to reveal her breasts once more.
He nodded as she reached for his hand, guiding it up her lean, creamy white thigh beneath her tight black skirt. His fingers brushed against the tuft of hair, and instinctively, his cock jumped. Christopher wanted to curse himself, to hate himself, but as a physician, he knew his body was reacting to a biological function.
“Finger me,” she whispered, “finger fuck me right here.”
“Here?” he said. Her eyes went wide as if shocked by his reaction. “I mean, why not let the anticipation build a little, and then I’ll fuck you in the bathroom.”
Good answer, but don’t go anywhere alone with her.
It was difficult for Christopher not to turn and seek out the voice in his ear. He knew that the three men were in the restaurant or close by, but he had no clue where. He also had no clue where the police were, but he knew that Kane had assured him they would be there.
“Oooohhhh,” she breathed heavily, “that makes me so hot. I want you to fuck me so hard you make me bleed, baby. And when we’re done with that sweet couple tonight, I want you to bathe me in their blood all over, just rub it all over. Will you do that?”
He nodded, staring at her, trying not to show his disgust.
“If we cut his cock off while it’s hard, can I still fuck myself with it?” she asked.