Page 139 of Pervade London
“All of what?”
“Right.” I exhaled slowly. “Did you suspect I was a spy?”
“Yes.”
“That’s why you were angry when I turned up at your castle.”
“Concerned, yes.”
“But not now?”
“No.”
“How would you know for sure?”
“It’s part of what we do. We needed time to turn over every leaf. Search every connection. Retrace every step you’ve ever taken.”
My lips trembled at his confession.
“I’ve yet to totally violate you. If you stay, however, violating you will be my pleasure…”
“That’s a monstrous thing to say.”
“You’re still standing here.”
“Because of Xavier.”
“Because of me. Admit it. Then, and only then, can we move forward.”
“You want me to tell you I have feelings for you?”
“Don’t insult me with such banality.”
“Love, then?”
“You fell in love with me back at the castle.”
“Arrogant…” I bit back the rest.
“If I have no hold on you in that regard, leave now.”
“I’m staying for Xavier.”
“Honesty, please.”
“I find you compelling. Charismatic, even. And love and hate are such similar emotions I find I’m having difficulty telling them apart these days.”
“What is your answer?”
“Don’t make me say it.” Don’t make me betray Xavier.
“Emily. Look at me.”
I held his stare, my expression telling him what he wanted to know, how I really felt. Yes, there was love in my heart for him and I couldn’t remember the exact moment it had happened or even why, all I knew was that this man had a hold on me.
Though I hated him, too.
“I approve,” he said coldly.
