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She sobers.“You want to know my greatest fear?”

“Yes.”

“That you might not feel the same way about me as I do about you.That you only see me as a Little girl, someone you can dominate.Someone who needs a caregiver and fulfills your need to be a Daddy.I’m scared I’m just some silly girl who’s developed a crush on her benefactor.Why would you take me seriously?Why would you want me to stay?What if you grow tired of me, or I break all the rules?And I know you say you want me physically, too, but that scares me just as much.I’m ignorant about sex.I’m not going to know what I’m doing.I’m not going to be any good at it.What if you have sex with me and realize I’m boring and too naïve?What if you change your mind and everything is ruined?Where would I go?How would I ever pay you back for all the things you’ve bought me?”

She’s firing questions so fast that I can’t keep up.She has a lot of fears, and I should have realized that.She’s so young.Of course she would have concerns about my intentions.

I reach out, pin her ankles, and drag her closer until I’m hovering over her with her legs dangling off the sides of the bed at my hips.

She gasps, eyes wide.

I grab her wrists, haul them over her head, and hold her down.I want her full attention, and I want her breathing heavily while I lecture her.

Her chest rises and falls.Her breaths are shallow.Her eyes are wider, lips parted, cheeks pink.

“Listen to me, Little one.You’re mine.I told you last night, and I’ll tell you every day for the rest of our lives.You’remine.You’re not just fulfilling a need to Daddy someone.You’ve sucked my soul out, and now you hold the power to trample on it.”

Her breath hitches.

“You may be Little, but you’re more mature than most women twice your age.You were forced to grow up at a very young age.The fact that you’re Little does not diminish the fact that you’re also an intelligent, educated, bright woman with a solid head on her shoulders.It takes courage to let yourself be vulnerable and submit to someone.I will never change my mind and let you go.Not without a fight.The fact that you’re willing to give my boring, hermit self a chance brings me to my knees.

“If, for some reason, you decided you couldn’t live this life with me, I would never ask you to repay me for a thing.If you ever suggest owing me money again, I will spank your ass until you can’t sit for a week.Let me spoil you.Let me buy you things.They’re as much for my benefit as yours.I like looking at you in what I buy.Maybe not in this particular combination, but…” I smile, hoping to lighten the air between us.

She glances down at herself.“What’s wrong with my outfit?I think it’s called rebellious teenager.”

“It’s called defiant Little girl.”I lift a brow and then change the subject to the final, most important one.“As for sex, I’m so fucking glad you will be mine and only mine.I will be the one to teach you everything you’ll ever know about pleasure.Every inch of your body will learn to respond to me.There is no way you could disappoint me, Natasha.It’s not possible.It doesn’t work that way.It is going to be amazing.Fireworks will explode because that’s how sex is between two people who love each other so much it hurts.Just looking at you makes my cock harder than a rock.It’s been permanently erect since we met.Do you have any idea how fucking horny I was after watching you touch yourself?”

Her cheeks are bright pink.She’s so adorable.

“When we have sex, I’m going to lick every inch of you so I can get a better taste than the one I got from your fingers last night.I’m going to worship your body until you don’t know up from down.You’re going to scream over and over while I make you come again and again.And when your body is supple, sated, and relaxed, then I will make you fully mine.You can’t do it wrong, Natasha.There is no doing it wrong.”

“Okay,” she whispers.

I lower my face and run my nose along the edge of her training bra, teasing the upper swell of her small breasts.

She whimpers.“Daddy…”

“I love the sound of you calling me Daddy.”

She squirms.“I’m sorry I was naughty.”

I smile.“You can be naughty, Natasha.It keeps things fresh.You’re entitled to your feelings.I want you to be able to come to me and challenge me.Don’t let things bottle up.There is nothing you can say or do that will drive me away.”

“So, I can take the car tomorrow?”

I growl.“Not a chance.”

Chapter18

Natasha

I can’t believe I just did all of that.I was so mad at him for having that car in the garage.And now I’m not sure why I was mad.I guess I felt cheap, but Daddy only wanted me to feel loved.

He’s still hovering over me, holding me down, making me horny, especially after he runs his nose along my breast.

“Why can’t I take the car?”I challenge.It’s fun to antagonize him.I don’t really want to take the car.I’d be afraid I’d wreck it.I’ve never driven anything that cost that much.

“I told you.You’re grounded from the car indefinitely.”

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