Page 132 of Deeper

Jul 10

DEBUT DUD

Over the weekend our favorite hip-hop clan, the Dymond Dynasty, held their annual Dymond Dinner where notable faces like Nas, Rick Ross, and La La Anthony were seen in attendance. What had most of us here at the tea table shook was spotting Zander Khalil at the meal. He didn’t come alone, as his recent love,Bianka,was his date for the evening.

The two showed up hand in hand in a matching assemble of burgundy and black, looking stylish and decadent. After snapping a few hot and totally dreamy pics against a green hedge, the two were seen whispering sweet nothings in each other’s ear—but things didn’t stay so sweet.

Not too long into the evening our man Zan was seen cozying up with his ex, Jolie, standing close to each other in group photos where Jolie was clearly all up in Zander’s ear winning him back. Bianka was nowhere in sight. A close source says she was seen leaving with none other than former So Whatter Teddy Sykes.

Ironically, hours before the event, Bianka uploaded a video of her getting ready and dancing on Zander, and the two seemed in such good spirits. We haven’t seen this much emotion out of Zander since he first went solo!

Reports are saying that Zander and Jolie have in fact rekindled their once simmering flame, and Bianka is out the door. Jolie was quick to repost an image of the two together on her Instagram story with the added quote “Back as it belongs.” We checked and she’s even following Zander again.

Yikes! Looks like what would’ve been a dashing couple debut, ended up in a very awkward swap. What do you think, Tea Party, did Zander make a good call spinning the block? Is Bianka giving anybody else groupie teas going from Zandy to Syko? Let us know your thoughts, spill below!

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There was a screen recorded video of me dancing on Zander before we’d left for dinner. There were several images of us together at the party, including the photos the photographer took.

I got lost staring at those, admiring the happiness on my face, and what looked like love in Zander’s eyes. Had we made it, perhaps I would’ve saved a couple of the photos and used one as my lock screen. For years, Victoria’s lock screen was of Zander, and even the first two digits of her passcode to her iPhone were made of his initials.

My heart broke even further at the screenshot of Jolie’s Instagram story, where she’d marked her territory and claimed her place in Zander’s life once more.

I didn’t know what to believe, though. The blog reported that I’d left with Teddy, that I’d gone from Zandy to Syko, as Teddy’s fan base were known asSykos. Either way, it wasn’t true. And if that part wasn’t true, how much more of the report was fabricated? Zander himself hadn’t confirmed or denied anything—yet.

Now I sounded desperate to hold on when I should’ve been wiser and let it all go.

“Well?” Victoria asked as she sat beside me. “What do you think? I mean, what really happened, Bia?”

It was a simple question, but in truth, I could barely answer it. It had all happened so fast, spiraling toward a pain I still couldn’t stomach. I tried to paint the picture for Victoria as best as I could, being completely honest in caseIwas wrong in any way. I told her everything, except for our moment in the bedroom, wanting that last nice piece of heaven to be just for us. When I finished, she still held no judgment against me.

“Fuck him,” she stated simply.

“I don’t know, Victoria. It’s different between us, it’s…deeper.”Deeper, the only word to describe my short romance with Zander Khalil. I let him in, I let him pick me up and hold me down, I was ready to go to bat for him, I allowed myself to fall in love with him. “We were supposed to be having a weekend fling, and instead I ended up crying over my family, and he held me and he made love to my body and my soul.

“I let go with him, I tried new things, I wasn’t so bitter and jaded, I was happy. And now all I wanna do is throw up and cry.”

Victoria reached up to wipe at my eyes. “You can still be happy. Don’t let Jolie or Zander ruin your joy; you’re much bigger than that. Maybe you both need some space right now to clear your heads, if it’s meant to be…well, you know how that goes. For now, maybe you should block his socials and number, just to take a moment and focus on yourself.”

I hadn’t even looked at my phone since I’d come home from the hotel. Paul had called and texted me, but I hadn’t been in the mood to carry a conversation or respond.

My mood wasn’t the best, but Victoria was right—I had to free my mind and focus on myself. Suddenly, going in for my shift at Angles felt completely appealing.

“Guess I’ll be going in to work after all.” I stood from the couch and headed into my bedroom, going and finding my phone to check its battery charge. Upon grabbing my cell, I found dozens of notifications on my screen. People were tagging me on The CelebriTea’s post about my split with Zander, others were DMing me support, and there was even a text and missed call from Holliston.

Block it all out, Bia, I coached myself as I took a deep breath.

I went to wash my hands of it all, even if it meant either giving Zander his proper time to cool down as well, or leaving the two lovebirds to reconnect. Only, on every social media profile I had, when I went to try to unfollow Zander,hewas still following me.

It had been a day, and I didn’t know what to think of it. I was probably overthinking, finding an excuse to be hopeful, or maybe it meant The CelebriTea was full of bullshit.

In the end, I tossed my phone to the side to go and get ready for work instead.

As if a follow meant anything anyway.

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I DON’T WANNA LIVE FOREVER

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