Page 38 of Her Bully Alpha

I smiled, starting to see that it was true. As grumpy as he seemed, Jay had softened up to me.

"Well, I should get back to my walking. You have a good time enjoying the weather and your reading spot."

"Thank you.” I sat up a little straighter. “And I hope you get what you want.”

Nessa looked at me, confused, and I waved a hand. “With Katie. I hope whatever she has planned for you works so you can have kids.”

Nessa's eyes looked like they filled with tears and she gave me a soft smile. “I hope so to.

I waved as Nessa started to walk away, and I leaned back against the trunk. I couldn't help but softly smile. It was clear that she had grown up.

The wind blew, and it felt like a warm hug was wrapped around me. I knew a lot of shifters talked about the forest feeling like a second home. Their wolves talked about how it felt like being released to the wild, and I could understand it. It was lovely sitting out here. I could only imagine what it felt like to run freely through the trees and just be.

I closed my eyes and sighed, letting the wind blow against me. I pulled my hand up, rubbing my forehead, wishing I could figure out my magic. Couldn't something just be simple for me once? Why did everything have to be difficult?

"You look stressed."

I opened my eyes and spotted Jay standing a few feet away. His arms were crossed as he stared at me, looking relaxed. He was wearing a pair of jeans and a short-sleeve white shirt. He looked happier in the past couple of days.

"How long have you been standing there?" I asked, pushing myself off the trunk. Had he heard my conversation with Nessa? And if he did, just how much?

He smirked. "Just a minute. I was enjoying the view."

I rolled my eyes. "I'm getting a headache. I wish this magic was simpler. Everything I've read has only given me more questions than answers." I waved my hands at the books. "And there is nothing of use in here until I actually show my magic. So… it's just great. I'm getting nowhere with this."

Jay walked closer, picking up a book. "Where did you even go and get these?"

"The library. I need to return them later. I figured I would find something in them."

"And there is nothing useful?" he asked as he raised an eyebrow at me.

I shook my head. "Nothing that we weren't already trying."

"Well, how about I help," he said, taking a seat across from me. My heart skipped a beat as he grabbed a book, flipping it open. I couldn't help but feel a little happy, seeing he was just as invested in this as I was.

I stared at him, taking in his eyes as he read. I chewed on my lip, feeling joy. It was odd how far we had come already. I didn't want to be near him and now, I could lean on him and close my eyes.

Chapter 15 - Jay

I flipped through the book, trying to see if there was anything that maybe Sam had missed. I doubted it. She did this type of stuff for a living. But I wanted to be helpful. I felt so far I had failed her. I couldn't protect her from the Council and getting married. I couldn't even get her magic to come out, but I could read these books and try to help her figure it out.

"What are you doing out here?" Sam asked as she leaned against the tree. She looked peaceful as she sat there. The sun fell on her, casting a soft glow over her skin. Her eyes sparkled in the light.

"I was actually looking for you, and I felt a pull to come over here."

Her eyebrows went up. "You did? When did that start? Have you always felt that?"

I had always felt a pull to be near her, but I just figured it was because of the type of person she was. Henrik always spoke about his mother having the same effect on people that I didn't think much about it.

But at the wedding, I couldn't deny it anymore. That pull I was feeling was because she was made for me. Sam was my other half, and my wolf wanted her. Katie had been right when she said she was my mate.

I decided I should be honest with her. "I've always had a pull towards you, Sam. I've just spent years ignoring it."

She looked stunned. "What do you mean?"

Being a human, Sam wouldn't understand the feeling. She wouldn't know what it felt like to feel that ache deep in your chest to be with someone. That pull was like an arrow telling you where to go. It was a guiding light in a dark room.

"I've had it for years, but always pushed it down. I told myself it was just because you were a nice person. There was no way that I was to be with a human. My father always talked about how I was born to be a leader, and a leader couldn't be with a human. So, naturally, I just thought it was something else."

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