Page 76 of Still Made For You

“Yea, just like that. Let me get between those juicy thighs.” I stifled a moan.

Most men only cared about penetrating your body, but Onyx consumed my body as well as my mind. He put thought into our dates, even when he invited me to his games. He insisted I got the best seats possible. I hated being the center of attention, so I preferred to sit where most people were seated. He felt I needed to be courtside, especially when it was a home game. It drove me absolutely nuts.

At home, I got to be Bree, but out in public, I became Onyx Jefferson’s girlfriend. I’d become an involuntary influencer overnight, and I was still adjusting to it. Onyx didn’t seem to mind the limelight; however, it came with an immense amount of pressure. He told me I handled it better than most, but I preferred to be out of the camera view as much as possible.

“Turn around, so I can get your back too.” I peered in his direction. My goodness, this man must have been created with extra care. His cocoa complexion radiated in the sunlight. I loved staring into his sexy hazel orbs when he pinned me to the bed. I understood why his female fans lost their minds when he entered a room. Onyx’s aura was unmatched.

“You know I don’t like repeating myself. Turn that ass around.” I’d gotten distracted with admiration; I forgot his instructions. Pivoting in my spot, I obliged his request.

“Thank you, ma. I got the best seat in the house.” I chuckled. The paint felt cold, but as Ty explained, it warmed up instantly. The front had a few dry spots already. As much as I enjoyed the thoughtfulness behind this, I knew the shower I’d be taking afterward would be heavenly.

After he covered me with paint, it was my turn. Not too many people knew this, but painting used to be a hobby of mine. Although nowhere near Tyeis’s level, I knew some basic skills. It took about an hour and a half for us to finish up.

“You both did so good. I’m going to take a few pictures and then print them out for you. How does that sound?” She asked. We both nodded our heads while posing for the camera. Onyx and I had quite a height difference, so I got a good laugh when Ty stood up on a chair to get a better angle.

“I don’t say this often, but you two make one fine-ass melanated couple. I love to see it. Sincere’s already a handsome chocolate drop, and if you two have children, those babies will have some gorgeous ass genes.” For some reason, I received compliments from women better than men. When another woman affirms your beauty, you just know they’re telling the truth.

“Thank you, love. It’ll be a long time before I even think about having another baby, but I appreciate you.” I felt Onyx tense up, but I didn’t think too hard about it. We took a shower together in order to wash off the paint, then got dressed back into our clothes.

I checked my phone to see if I’d gotten any new messages, then stuck it back into my purse. The rest of the date went by smoothly, ending with us having dinner at the Lucky Crab. I told Onyx how much I craved their crab cakes a few weeks ago. Normally, I come at least once a month, but life’s been keeping me busy. Once again, he brought my desires to life.

On the ride home, I noticed Onyx seemed unusually quiet. Normally, he’d be goofing off or something, but his silence sent off alarms in my mind. I glanced at our hands interlocked together, thinking maybe I might be overthinking. However, my gut told me differently, and it’s rarely wrong.

“What’s on your mind, baby?” He briefly peered in my direction, but no words were spoken. My anxiety caused my mind to run wild. I was used to arguing and loud talking when there was an issue, so his quiet demeanor scared me.

“Back at the studio, you mentioned you weren’t planning on having kids for a long time. It kind of bothered me a little bit. Not because of anything you think or feel. I guess for the first time, I realized our age difference may be an issue.” The word issue caused my stomach to churn.

“Wh-what do you mean by that?” I prayed he wasn’t getting ready to break up with me.

“We’re in two different seasons in life if that makes sense. I’m getting older, so I’m ready to settle down and start a family. Whereas you’re still figuring life out, you know?” My head shook vehemently.

“Maybe I’m overthinking, but it feels like we may want different things. I don’t want you to feel like you have to compromise because we’re in a relationship. We got together quickly, so there are topics we haven’t talked about in detail. Including starting a family.” I thought back to my earlier comments with Tyeis. I meant what I said, although it’s clear Onyx may have taken them the wrong way.

“I want to make sure I understand you before I react. You have concerns because I’m not ready to have more children right now?”

“Honestly, it’s really about me. I told you about my previous relationship, but there’s a lot I’ve never shared with you. Lyrissa and I were together for almost five years. We were going to get married and everything, but then things took a turn. She started becoming distant, and I tried to fix whatever it was.

"I’d wanted children for a long time, but she wanted to get married first. I promised her once I signed my new contract, we’d start planning for a wedding, and for the most part, she seemed satisfied. About six months before we were set to get married, Lyrissa revealed her pregnancy to me. Of course, I felt ecstatic because it’s what I wanted. In my mind, everything was falling into place.

"Eventually, things came to a head when a nigga approached me, claiming my woman and unborn child as his. I’m not one to take anyone else’s word, so I went to the source. Of course, she cried about how lonely it was when I was on the road and how sorry she was. The shit crushed me, although I’m not one to dwell on things. Life goes on whether you want it to or not. Ever since then, I’ve felt this sense of pressure to make up for the time I’ve lost. I don’t want to be in another relationship where I’m placed on someone else’s timeline, only for them to end up betraying me in the end.” His revelation broke my heart, but it also gave me more insight into his thought process. I may not always agree with him, but I respect his feelings. He does the same for me, too.

“I understand your concerns, but I can assure you that we’re on the same page. We haven’t been together long enough for me to feel ready for a baby, but I see my future with you. Right now, I want to enjoy our relationship as we learn more about one another. I made a promise to myself that I would not allow my past experience to hold me back from opening up to you, and I meant that. When the time is right, I’m going to give you as many babies as you can handle. I do want to get married first, though.” I loved the fact that we were able to communicate about our fears and feelings openly because had I jumped to conclusions, this would have turned out differently.

“I would love nothing more than for you to become my wife. I guess I just needed to know we both wanted the same things. I love Sincere like he’s my own, but I’ve always envisioned having a big family. It’s something I never had, and I want to spoil my children as much as possible.

“You’re so good with my son, and I know you’re going to be an amazing father one day. I can’t wait to be able to share that experience with you. Just promise me, you’ll never stop loving me.”

“That’s a promise, I can easily make. I’ll love you until I take my last breath.”

twenty

“Thankyouforhavingus, Chicago! Until next time!” I yelled into the mic after I finished my set for the night. The adrenaline rush I experienced whenever I took the stage reminded me of why I worked so hard. Glancing down at Reign; my heart swelled with pride having my baby girl beside me. Each show, I witnessed her come out of her shell more and more. The way she dominated the stage reminded me of myself when I first started. The hunger and drive she possessed were unmatched.

I thought she’d be nervous the first time I brought her on stage, but she took the mic and shone brighter than any star. This was our third year on tour together, and baby girl still had that fire in her eyes. We’d been in the studio developing her sound because she really wanted to try her hand at music. I won’t pretend I wasn’t leery about it when she first came to me. I knew what this industry did to young people, and I wanted to shield my children as much as I could. Unfortunately, my daughter carried my stubbornness and determination as well. Once she put her mind to something, there wasn’t anything you could do to talk her out of it.

My team loved her, and my manager believed she possessed the talent to go far in this business. I decided to take her on tour this year and allow her to perform her own song as a soft launch as opposed to her singing background for me. Nayeli and I were more nervous than Reign. She got on the stage and killed it as if she’d been performing her whole life. It amazed me to see the little person I created coming into her own. My baby was growing up before my eyes, and I needed her to slow down.

“Ahhhh! You guys did so good out there! I’m so proud of you both!” Nayeli cheered, bouncing Reason in her arms. I kept telling her about carrying his big ass around everywhere, but she paid me no attention. My boy will be turning three soon, and he was still a hip baby.

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