In the dim light, I study the woman who has irrevocably changed the course of my existence. She saw through my carefully constructed façade from our first meeting, recognizing the man I could be rather than the monster I had become.
I take her hand gently in mine, marveling at how someone so physically unimposing could possess such enormous capacity for healing. These hands that will tenderly care for our children once tended plants in a Brooklyn apartment, creating beauty from nothing just as she's created a family from the broken pieces of my existence.
As Wil sleeps, I allow myself to believe for the first time that redemption might be possible, that the blood on my hands won't stain the lives we've created together. Perhaps the man I was truly did die in that nightclub explosion, leaving behind someone worthy of this extraordinary woman and the five perfect beings we've brought into the world.
For tonight, at least, I permit myself to hope love might prove stronger than violence, that creation might balance destruction, and a future might exist untainted by the past. Watching over Wil as she sleeps, I’m simply grateful for second chances, new beginnings, and the miraculous possibility that even someone like me might find his way home.
EPILOGUE
Wil
Four years pass like a dream, sometimes achingly slow, and sometimes so swiftly I can barely catch my breath. Our sweet countryside estate with a slowly recovering vineyard we’re tending after years of neglect, nestled among rolling hills, feels worlds away from both Manhattan's noise and the coastal safehouse's remoteness.
The early morning sun makes the ruby ring on my left hand sparkle. I’ve worn it since the quintuplets were six months old, and Mak proposed to me. The wedding was quick, but weddings were never my thing anyway.
The rosebush that I’ve tended from my mother’s clippings for years occupies a spot of honor nearby. I finally moved it into the ground from a pot when I embraced the knowledge we wouldn’t have to move again.
Through the open door, I watch Mak lying in the grass, eyes closed in feigned exhaustion as five energetic preschoolers crawl over him like a jungle gym. He groans dramatically when little Alexander tugs his hair, the sound punctuated by Michael's delighted giggles when he attempts to eat a dandelion plucked from the lawn. Mak's protests are entirely for show. I recognize the contentment in his relaxed posture, and the joy barely concealed beneath his pretend suffering.
"Papa, wake up." Gisele pokes his cheek with determined precision, her dark curls bouncing with each movement. At four years old, she's already the natural leader of the pack, organizing her siblings into increasingly complex games with the same authoritative air her father once used to command an empire.
Beside her, Natalia copies her sister's actions with identical determination, their twin expressions revealing the shared DNA that makes them physically indistinguishable to strangers. Only those of us who know them intimately can see the differences—Gisele's perpetual motion versus Natalia's thoughtful pauses, the slight scar on Natalia's chin from a tumble last summer, and the way Gisele always leads while Natalia considers options.
The boys are similarly identical in appearance but distinct in personality. Alexander, our firstborn by eight minutes, barrels through life with fearless enthusiasm, always first to climb, jump, or challenge boundaries. Michael, our youngest, approaches the world with wide-eyed wonder, collecting treasures—interesting rocks, fallen feathers, and unusual leaves—that fill his pockets and our windowsills. Between them, Leonid—called Leo so as not to be confused with Leonid, who lives in the guesthouse and still watches over our family—is our quiet observer, who notices everything. He currently sits cross-legged beside his prostrate father, studying a ladybug with intense concentration while chaos unfolds around him.
"Papa's pretending," Leo says without looking up from his insect examination. "His breathing's different than when he's really sleeping."
That observation—so precise and thoughtful—brings a smile to my face. Though they're all developing at remarkable rates, Leo's perception sometimes catches us off guard with its acuity. It reminds me of Mak's ability to read people, but without the dangerous edge that skill once carried.
As if hearing my thoughts, Mak opens one eye to peek at Leo with mock offense. "Traitor. You've ruined my escape plan."
The accusation sends all five children into fresh attacks, climbing and poking with renewed determination. With an exaggerated roar that somehow manages to sound simultaneously fierce and gentle, Mak "wakes up" fully, snatching children with playful growls that send them shrieking with delight in all directions.
From the porch swing nearby, Zina lowers her book to watch the chaos, iced tea forgotten in her hand as she shakes her head at the display. "You've created monsters," she calls to Mak, though the affection in her voice belies any criticism.
Unlike Mak, whose transition to civilian life required conscious effort and occasional struggles, Zina has flourished in our new existence. She teaches languages at a nearby university, her academic credentials established through an elaborate backstory Leonid created during our transition. Recently, she's been spending time with a literature professor who knows nothing of her past. It’s a burgeoning relationship she approaches with cautious optimism.
"Uncle Leonid!" Alexander spots Leonid emerging from the barn with gardening tools and abandons the game to race toward him, the others following in an enthusiastic wave.
Leonid sets down his equipment to brace for impact, his weathered face breaking into a smile that comes easily these days as five small bodies collide with his legs. Though he officially serves as our groundskeeper, his role encompasses far more—unofficial uncle to the children, vigilant guardian of our family's new identity, and the final remaining link to a past we've otherwise abandoned.
There are no bodyguards patrolling our property, no guns hidden in strategic locations, and no bulletproof windows or panic rooms. We’re just a family living the quiet life that once seemed an impossible dream. The most sophisticated security system we maintain is a standard alarm connected to the local police station, being more concerned with ordinary burglars than vengefulBratvaenemies. The Smith family has no reason to fear all that.
I finish misting my prized Phalaenopsis orchid and set down the spray bottle, surveying my botanical domain with satisfaction. My garden has expanded beyond what I ever imagined possible in my Brooklyn apartment, or even that exotic greenhouse outside New York City, now encompassing everything from vegetables for our table to flowering trees that mark the property's boundaries. Each plant receives the same careful attention I once gave to premature infants in the NICU, though the stakes now are pleasure rather than survival.
I smile as I watch Mak corral the children for a game of tag, his laughter joining theirs in the summer air. The man who moves with such gentle playfulness among our children bears little resemblance to the cold-eyedBratvaboss I met at Eclipse. The transformation wasn't immediate, of course. There were nightmares in the early days, or moments when a car backfiring would send him into protective stances, and instances when he would check and recheck locks with compulsive thoroughness.
Thankfully, time and love are powerful healers. Each day spent focused on diapers and first steps rather than territories and alliances helped ease the hypervigilance. Each night spent beside me rather than planning operations or neutralizing threats gradually softened the hard edges of his personality. The children especially have been his salvation—their unconditional love and complete acceptance allowing him to see himself through their innocent eyes rather than through the blood-tinted lens of his past.
This isn't the life I originally imagined for myself when I was a dedicated NICU nurse with a small apartment garden and a carefully structured routine. The path that led here contains more darkness than I care to remember. Gisele's death, months of grief believing Mak was gone forever, and the fear of bringing five children into a world that seemed determined to harm them.
Yet standing here now, watching my family thrive in the light rather than hiding in the darkness, I'm happier than I could have ever imagined with what happened to bloom from that one impulsive night at Eclipse.
"Mama, come play." Natalia waves frantically from her perch on Mak's shoulders, her small face alight with excitement.
Mak catches me watching and flashes a real smile that contains no trace of the coldness that once defined him. The man who once commanded fear with a glance now engages in tickle fights and bedtime stories, his strength channeled into protecting rather than threatening, building rather than destroying.
I set down my watering can and move to join them in the sunshine, leaving the shade to embrace the bright future we've created together. As I cross the lawn, Mak transfers Natalia from his shoulders to Leonid's care and meets me halfway, his arms encircling my waist with casual intimacy that still sometimes surprises me after our complicated beginning.