Page 25 of Things You Save in a Fire

After a while, in the fire service, calls start to blur together in your mind. But a rare few stand out. Something about that woman stayed with me—something about the way I’d glimpsed her future before she did. Her life as she knew it was gone, and I was the first one to know.

That’s how life is. Things happen. Lives get broken. Some people never can put themselves back together.

I wondered if she would.

I wondered if I would.

All I’d had to do was shake the man’s hand and walk off the stage. Instead, I put him in the hospital. Which was still a lot less than he’d done to me. But what was that old saying my dad loved so much?The best revenge is forgetting.

I clearly hadn’t forgotten a thing.

Despite all my efforts.

In my defense, I hadn’t expected to see Heath Thompson there. I’d had no warning. It was supposed to be the mayor—a friendly, portly fellow I’d met several times before. It was the shock of seeing the monster himself. I hadn’t had time to prepare. If I’d known it would be him in advance, maybe I could have acted differently.

Or not.

Maybe, if I’d known, I would have skipped the banquet entirely.

Maybe I wasn’t as completely fine as I wanted to think.

And now—insult to injury—I was moving in with my mother.

The last person I would have picked.

She didn’t even know the real reason I’d agreed to come. She thought I was just being nice—just doing my daughterly duty.

Or maybe she thought I’d softened toward her. Or even decided to forgive her. Was she expecting bonding? Was that on her agenda?

There would be no bonding.

I was going there to do a job. I would help her until she’d adjusted to her new eye situation, and then I’d find somewhere else to live. If I could prove myself at the Lillian FD, I’d move to Lillian. If not, I’d move somewhere else. Somewhere closer to home—preferably some place with tacos. A year at the most, she’d said. But it would take much longer.

Oh my God. I was moving back in with my mother.

How long had it been since I’d lived with her? Not since before she’d left us—on the night I turned sixteen.

A lifetime.

Would she notice how different I was now?

Would it bother me when she noticed?

Would she try to change me back?

And if she did that—if she insisted on comparing and contrasting who I’d been before with who I’d become now—what would that do to me? Would it drown me in sorrow for everything I’d lost?

I sucked in a deep breath and sat up straight.

I needed a strategy. The one thing I couldn’t do right now was to become emotionally destabilized. I had worked too hard and come too far.

The only safe approach I could see was to keep my distance. Yes, I had to live in her attic, but we’d be housemates and nothing more. I’d go to work, and take long runs, and work out, and do whatever chores she asked of me, and that would be it. My mother—and life, and circumstances, and Captain Harris—could force me into this situation. But nobody could make me like it.

ARRIVING IN ROCKPORT,I spotted my mother’s house right away. I didn’t even have to check the address.

It was a tiny, classic New England saltbox shape, with gray shingles,just as I’d seen everywhere on my drive up, but it was covered, doorstep to roof, in painted flowers.

The front door, and all around it, and the windows and shutters and window boxes—all brightly, lovingly hand-painted with folk-art reds and pinks and oranges. The tiny front yard overflowed with real flowers as well, in a colorful, tangled jumble, draping over the picket fence.

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