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Nat kisses my cheek and races off, showing her hand up in a careless wave as she throws herself around a guy in a white shirt and slacks. He catches her, and the two start passionately making out right there on the beach.

I thought she was supposed to go with us to lunch? I shouldn’t be jealous of my friend trying to find love when I have three amazing alphas here.

And three not so amazing ones.

Gael stops in front of me, his lips are puffy, and I feel like throat punching him.

“What?” I say when he doesn’t speak.

“Is there anything you want to do or see on this island before we leave?”

I hesitate because it’s actually really nice, and there is something I want to see, but I can’t get there.

“What is it?” he asks gently.

I want to be angry with him. I want to spit at him and curse him. But I can’t. He’s being so nice, and he has a way of disarming you completely.

“There’s a view, but it’s hard to reach-”

“You wanted to go somewhere, and you didn’t tell me?” Shale growls and takes my hand. “Come on.”

“Where are we going?”

“To plan how to get you to the view.”

“It doesn’t matter. It was a stupid idea!” I limp as quickly as I can but end up falling behind. Shale slows to my pace instantly with a regretful look.

“Sorry.”

“Don’t be,” I murmur self-consciously.

Gael clears his throat and indicates across the road where Kelly and Beau stand together. Keagan and Ezy are behind us. I can feel them with just how sensitive my body seems to be around them. I think I could close my eyes and pick them out easily.

There would be no issues. They are my north, and I am the needle pointing the way. I can’t look away from them.

But I’m so mad.

And worse than mad, I don’t trust them anymore. Trust is something that is earned, but, with me, once lost is hard to regain.

How do I tell them I don’t think they can win it back?

I don’t want them to even try. I just want them gone.

But they have bonds.

Gael glances sideways at me, and I clench my fist around my walking stick so I don’t go and slap him. Because I really, really don’t want to have to forgive them.

But I don’t think I’m going to have a choice.

Chapter twenty-two

Gael

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I sit in the hotel room in the dark, only the small lamp is on. It’s the middle of the night. Kelly and Ezy are asleep, but I’m awake thinking about her again.

She is the reason I don’t sleep. No, it’s Noah.

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