I nodded.
“I’m sorry, Sam. If you hadn’t left to come get me, maybe-”
“No,” I said, “it’s not your fault.”
She nodded slightly, “still. If you were there, you might have been able-”
“I don’t care, Liv. I will never regret coming after you.”
She looked away from me, and refocused on the road, and it was silent inside the car again except from the hum of the engine.
It was calming to me, the constant hum and steady vibration - I guess it was how some people found music.
Liv stopped the car eventually, and even though I was looking out the window the whole time, it took a moment for me to register where we were.
We were outside of BoredHeaux, parked across the street.
I could see both my sister’s and Larissa’s car parked down the road.
“Why are we here?” I asked.
Livie shrugged, “I thought you might want to see Larissa after everything that’s happened.”
I shook my head and sunk into my seat.
“Not right now.”
“Sam,” she sighed.
“Just go.”
She sighed again and pulled back onto the road.
“Where would you like to go?” she asked after a while.
I shrugged, and she nodded.
“The beach,” I said after a few moments, and even surprised myself.
She looked at me, an eyebrow raised.
“Didn’t peg you for a beachy kind of guy.”
“I’m not.”
She snorted a laugh, and I smiled over at her.
“The beach it is,” she said, pushing down on the accelerator pedal and heading outside of the city.
The car came to a stop and I hopped out, walking down the boardwalk towards the sand. Liv followed behind me, and I held her hand as she fumbled over the cement barrier to get down towards the beach.
We both stood at the shoreline, looking out towards the distant horizon.
“What?” I said, not looking at her, but I still felt her eyes on me.
“I don’t know, you confuse me.”
“How?”