Page 41 of Finding Us

“You’re right. I don’t know why I said that. I guess because I’m going to miss not seeing you every day.”

“I know. It’s going to totally suck not having you there this year, but you’ll be way happier out here with your new husband. I’m so happy for you, Jade. I know I tell you that all the time but I just love seeing you and Garret together. It makes me all warm and fuzzy inside.”

“You’re such a romantic.”

“I can’t help it. I’ve always been that way.”

“So how are things going with Sean?”

“Good.”

“Good as in you’re not going to break up with him?”

“I never said I was breaking up with him.”

“You talked about it before I left.”

“Because I thought Sean and I had to have the same type of love you and Garret have, but then I realized that I’ll never have that type of love so I need to stop looking for it.”

“Harper, don’t try to compare our relationships. What you have with Sean is great. He loves you and he’d do anything for you.”

“I know.” She looks off into the distance, where Sean is surfing. “I should be happy with what I have.”

“Hey.” I nudge her arm until she looks at me. “Are you happy with him or not?”

“I’mveryhappy. I’m just not sure he’s the one. But I’m not going to worry about it. Now that Sean and I have been spending more time alone together I’ve been feeling better about things between us.”

“Sorry. Garret and I shouldn’t have been spending so much time over here.”

“No, I didn’t mean to say it like that but—”

“Harper, don’t worry about it. You and Sean need time alone and Garret and I are fine with that. We can find plenty of things to keep ourselves occupied.”

She smiles as she dips a chip in some salsa. “Yeah, I know.”

“I wasn’t talking aboutthat. I was talking about—”

“You guys can get pretty loud. Sometimes we even have to close our windows.” She pops the chip in her mouth.

“Are you serious?” I feel myself blushing. “I’m so sorry. I promise we’ll be quieter from now on.”

She’s laughing. “I’m joking. We’ve never heard anything.”

I kiddingly punch her. “Then why did you say it? Now you’ve got me all worried about it.”

“Forget I said anything. Be as noisy as you want. The waves are so loud we’d never hear you guys.” She gets this goofy grin on her face. “So tell me, Jade. Is Garret good in bed?”

“Harper! You know I don’t talk about that stuff. Even with you.”

“Why not? All girls talk about this stuff.” She glances at Sean who’s now standing on the beach. “Sean’s great in bed. I mean, really great. We’re totally compatible that way. And we’re both open to trying most anything at least once.”

“Okay, stop. I don’t need to know this. It’s too much information.”

“So tell me about you and Garret.”

“I told you. I don’t like talking about it.”

She puts her hand on my arm and frowns. “That bad, huh? Well, I knew everything couldn’t be perfect between you two. I’m just sorry it had to be your sex life.”

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