Page 88 of Fighting Shadows

When I’m buried to the hilt, I groan at the feel of her pussy fluttering around me. Dropping my forehead to hers, I see the tears gathering in her eyes, “I love you, Autumn, with all my heart and soul. I am yours forever,” I tell her earnestly, pulling out and slamming back into her, “Just as you are mine. Mine to love,” grabbing her leg, I lift it, getting the perfect angle, “Mine to hold,” I snap my hips back and then push back into her, Autumn’s walls clamp down on my cock as an orgasm rips through her, “Mine to do whatever I want to but make no mistake that the only thing I ever want to do is show you howmuch I love you.” I roll her pebbled nipple between my fingers, pinching slightly, and copy my movements on the other side. “How I’m obsessed with you and how much I want to tie you to us forever so you can never leave us again because, without you, I’m nothing.”

“I love you too,” she gasps as I change my pace, fucking her painfully slowly.

“You’ve ruined me, Autumn. You’ve ruined all of us, but I don’t care. I just need you to love me, and I’ll be content with that for the rest of my life. Whatever you want, I’ll give. You want my heart? You want my eyes so you can see yourself how I see you? I’ll carve it out. I don’t care if I sound crazy. I would die for you if it meant you were happy.”

Tears leak from her eyes, leaving trail marks down her cheeks and dripping onto her pillow, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry for everything you’ve been through but listen to my words, Autumn. You are so loved by all of us,” I say softly, kissing her tears away as they fall until they stop.

I maneuver us so she’s laid on her side and undo the bindings from her wrist before I sink my cock back into her. Fucking her slowly, I savor the feeling of her warmth.

“Thank you,” she whispers into the dark room.

“You never need to thank me.”

“I do,” she says, her hands clutching the arm wrapped around her waist. “All the thoughts I had of him before are gone. Now, all I see is you.”

We stay like that for a while, and I lose track of time as I continue to make love to her; the telltale sign that I’m about to come has the base of my spine tingling, and my hips jerk as I fill her with my cum.

I move to pull out of her, intent on getting a flannel and cleaning her up, but she halts my movements, grabbing my wrist.

“Stay.”

“I need to clean you up.”

“No, stay inside of me, please. I want to fall asleep like this,” she says; a tinge of embarrassment laces her words, but I kiss her neck softly and push my already softening cock back into her, “I love you.”

“I love you too, Princess; now sleep,” I say, kissing her neck, cheek, and shoulder. I pull the cover over us and lay there until her breathing deepens and finally allow myself to drift off with her in my arms.

Chapter 44

To my Chlo,

The plans have been set into motion today, and I’m terrified.

Noah plans to phone Charlie, pretending to arrange to take me back to him even though I know it’s not real. I still shudder at the idea of being in his clutches again.

I still have no memory of before, and none of the doctors I see think it’s going to return, and I’m glad.

I want to live in the bubble I’ve created for myself a bit longer before I have to face him again because I will.

I need to say what I need to to him, to make sure he knows I never wanted him and that the guys are the ones who get every part of me, the parts he forced me to give to him.

It’s so much more valuable when it’s given freely, isn’t it?

Noah has been by the house every day, and I’m surprised the guys haven’t just moved him in already. They all get on amazingly, and you would never think that he hadn’t been part of their group the entire time.

Sebastian is still standoffish with him, but he’s trying, and I think he’s come to the same realization I have that he’s not going anywhere anytime soon, and if I’m being honest, I don’t want him to.

I think we’ll need to have a talk once everything with Charlie is done, but that’s a later Autumn’s problem while I deal with the emotions that threaten to rip me apart.

He’s going to be in front of me once again, and I’m terrified even when I know I’ll have the guys there by my side.

I miss you, Chlo.

So very much.

Love

Mama

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