“Kiss me,” she said again.

This time, I didn’t hesitate. I leaned in and kissed her gently, but she seemed to want more. She tilted her head to the side, and the kiss went from sweet and tender to hot and passionate within seconds. I felt my cock respond immediately and when her tongue met mine, I was completely hard. I pulled back for a moment and set aside my beer. I took the one in Gabby’s hands too. Then I turned back to her pushed her up against her bedroom door and went in for another kiss.

My hands started running up and down her body, and I felt her sigh, but a moment later, I felt a little push back, and she gently disentangled herself from my arms and walked towards her bed. I thought she was trying to move things there, but then she cleared her throat and gave me a shy smile.

“I have something I need to tell you,” she said.

I tensed immediately, wondering what was in store for me. “Okay… should I be worried?” I asked.

Gabby raised her eyebrows as though she didn’t know how to answer that question. “Um… I don’t know,” she said, which didn’t exactly make me feel better about the whole thing. “Why don’t I just tell you?”

“Please.” I nodded, as I walked over to her bed and sat down beside her.

“I’m a virgin,” she said abruptly.

I stared at her for a moment. “What?”

“I’m a virgin,” she said again slowly.

“I… really?”

“Yes.” Gabby nodded.

“Wow… I did not expect that,” I said honestly.

“Does that freak you out a little?” Gabby asked, trying to decipher my reaction.

“No,” I said immediately. “I mean I can’t pretend I’m not surprised. But I’m not freaked out. I guess I was just expecting something… bigger.”

Gabby smiled. “That’s my big secret.”

I felt a little spasm of guilt when she said that. If that was her big secret then what would she think of all the things I was keeping from her? I knew I needed to come clean about all my secrets too. This would have been the perfect opportunity too, but I didn’t know how she would react. What if she stormed off? What if she moved out again? After that kiss we had just shared, I knew I couldn’t let her go. This girl was something special, and I needed to keep her in my life. I had never felt this way about anybody before… she was more than just my roommate and my friend. She was my muse.

So instead of being a man, stepping up and telling her the truth about me, I took the coward’s way out and tried to tell myself that this was not the right time.

“Well, your secret’s safe with me.”

“I just thought you should know… considering…”

“Considering I was moving a little fast for you?” I asked.

Gabby smiled. “I know I said we should keep things platonic, but…”

“Yes?” I asked, hanging on her every word.

“I don’t know… I feel something when I’m with you,” she admitted, and I could have jumped for joy. So this wasn’t a one-sided thing. “I can’t quite describe it, it just feels—”

“Complete when we’re together?” I asked.

“Yes.” Gabby nodded.

“You know, before I met you I thought I was doing okay, the parties and the nightlife… that’s what kept me going. It was the only thing I had to make me forget all the shit I was dealing with. But since you came into my life… that doesn’t seem to cut it anymore.”

“Is that why you’re here with me instead of out there with your friends?” Gabby asked.

“I tried to get rid of them but they refused to go,” I sighed.

“It’s okay,” Gabby said. “You can hide here with me.”