Her curses filled the air and they only fueled my hunger. She didn’t fall apart like this for anyone else. This was all mine.
“You break so beautifully for me, Harlow.”
With that I came undone, filling her completely as I bit down on her neck. My knot had her screaming as it pushed her to her limits and beyond. If she wasn’t an omega it would break her, but her body could handle me and we both knew that.
Her human and half breed may be able to give her the outside world that I couldn’t, but I left my mark on her and had infiltrated her senses, her body, her mind, her soul, and I knew she couldneverlet me go.
“What did you want to talk about? You have my attention.” Normally we weren’t the talk-about-our-feelings type. However, if she was this insistent, I’d entertain the idea for now. Especially with my knot holding her in place.
“Where do you keep going? I feel like you’ve been avoiding me, Monty.” It was blunt and full of hurt.
“I’m doing what I can to keep you alive. Playing two sides of a war isn’t easy and half the time you’re walking right into danger,” I said.
She blinked up at me.
“I don’t—” I cut her off with a harsh laugh.
“Third-floor-staff hallway?” She grimaced at my words.
“There was no other choice,” she defended weakly. “I can’t just let you guys do everything for me all of the time.”
“You’re human and extremely fragile, Harlow. If I lost complete control, I could break you. We demons and gargoyles are not the same breed. We can handle the fighting. You cannot. Which is good because I like you soft and a bit reliant on me. It makes me feel like I have a purpose.”
“You have always had a purpose, Monty,” she argued. “You’re a commander of Helheim. And you’ve always been my best friend. I wouldn’t have survived without you.”
“When you were first on the run. The first night on the streets. I killed two men for you,” I admitted with a grin.
“What?” she gasped. “While I slept?”
“You were having bad hallucinations and didn’t know I was there. When you passed out in the park, two men found you. Their thoughts and words sealed their fate. No one will ever find them.”
“Did you burn them to ash?” she asked, not at all put off by the fact I’d admitted to killing someone for her.
“No. I killed them and took their souls to Helheim. They’re currently spending eternity wandering the frigid wastes.” The thought had my grin widening and she shook her head.
“You’re a twisted demon, Monty.”
“I’ve never claimed to be otherwise. I’m not this soft demon who will be able to work out your complicated emotions. But I will always make sure you’re safe.”
“You love me,” she joked. But there was a question in there. It was hard. Love wasn’t an emotion demons knew well. The truth was, I was devoted to Harlow and had been for years. She was who I thought of always and would defy my queen for.
“Don’t tell anyone. It would ruin my credibility.” She grinned wider at that, and her smile almost warmed my nonexistent heart.
“Your secret is safe with me.”
Harlow
Sunday Night
Dark Haven Courtyard
Two days later, the demons were still trying to escape the grounds. Once again, Monty and Kol were MIA.
After my last encounter with Monty, I wasn’t sure how to feel. It was hard to wrap my head around everything he’d become. He was my rock and friend, and I knew he needed to fuck it out the other day.
It was a way for him to get out his own frustrations, and I wasn’t against it, I just hated that he wouldn’t talk unless I forced him to.
Yet, what he had said was exactly what I needed to hear. I just had to come to terms with the fact he and Kol were not human and they never could give me the same care the others could.