Page 140 of Sweet Venom

But it wasn’t just that.

The things I had to do to survive… those things hurt the most and that shit killed whatever humanity was left in me.

I didn’t know where Viktor was taking me. I didn’t know what I’ll have to do this time. But I knew one thing— whatever it was, it’s always worse than the last thing. These sick freaks always made it worse.

His harsh fingers closed around my wrist and I barely felt it. I didn’t feel anything anymore. His grip tightened, dragging me from the cage. My feet scraped against the stone floor and I wanted to spit in his face. I wanted to make him feel the same. But I didn’t.

“She’s a pretty little thing,” he chuckled and said something else but I didn’t hear it. I zoned out.

A girl.

They were always boys.

No.

Viktor shoved open a door, and the light from the room hit me, sharp and sterile. It’s too bright, too much, and I squint, but it doesn’t matter. I won’t flinch.

“Number 1.” Viktor urged me forward. “Meet Number 124.”

124.

The number of kids that passed through their filthy and evil hands.

I raise my gaze and something in me died a little more inside.

124 is not a boy. It’s a girl.

A tiny girl with a sad smile, pretty-black hair and lost green eyes.

I thought this hell had broken me entirely but it hadn’t not until this moment.

Until I had to break the bones of a little girl who didn’t deserve any of my rage.

But I had no choice. I couldn’t say no.

The last time I did.

A boy died.

All because of me.

All because I refused to deliver the pain.

I learned quickly that I couldn’t refuse.

Not in this place.

Because in this hell no one cared. I’m just another thing to use. But one day, I’m going to break free. I’m going to make them regret hurting me and thinking they could control me.

One day, I’ll make every sick fuck feel every inch of the pain they put kids like me and the little girl through.

And when I did, they wouldn’t be ready for me.

But until then I had to do whatever I could to survive. Even if it meant hurting the little girl with sad green eyes.

After I was done, I lost everything that made me human.

Or at least I thought I did but then she found me in a rose garden surrounded by darkness and nothing was ever the same after that.

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