Page 22 of Dodging Bullets

It was wrong.

But it felt so good.

His heavy weight on my chest was making it hard to breathe, though, which made it easier to do the right thing.

I poked him in the eyeball.

His eyes snapped open, and I could see the dawning horror as he realized where he was and what he was doing. “Omega! I’m so—” He shifted off me. “What are youdoingin here? Are you okay?”

I decided not to tell him about the fact that he’d almost choked me. I didn’t think any good could come from that, and really, it was my fault for sneaking into his room like a creep. So I let him run to the other side of the bed. “I couldn’t sleep. I thought I might sleep better with you.”

His face softened, and he moved closer. But he still didn’t touch me. The feelings coming down the bond were fear, and some kind of fondness. “Sweet Omega. I’m always here for anything you need, but it’s not safe when I’m asleep. I don’t have complete control. I’m…”—he paused, as if saying the next words hurt—“damaged. I could be dangerous to you.”

Yeah, I’d found that one out the hard way. Instead of saying those words, I reached across the space between us. “Is it bad that I liked it?”

Llew groaned, burying his face in his hands and breathing deeply. “Not bad at all, Sweet Thing. Anything that makes you feel good, that brings you happiness, can’t be bad. Tell me what you need, and I’ll provide it for you. On my honor as your Alpha.” He hesitated. “But I’m not sure you’re ready for what you’re actually asking for.”

“I’m well past the age of maturity.” I wanted to pout. My body felt wired, like it was desperate for something that was sitting just out of reach. “I know what I want. I want to feel good. I wantyouto make me feel good.” I wasn’t sure where my boldness was coming from right now; I would have never made these demands of an Alpha before. Something about the feel of Llew between my thighs sparked this urge in my body that made me desperate. “Please, Alpha.”

He shuddered, shifting closer. “Are you sure, Paloma? This is all very new, and I don’t want you to rush into anything you’d regret.” I nodded furiously, and I could see his jaw work. “Sweet Thing, you make it hard for an Alpha to keep his head. How about this?I’mnot ready for us to take this all the way, not ready to slide inside that delicious body and pull you down onto my knot—” He let out a choked noise. “But I can make you feel good, and help you find release. What do you think?”

I launched myself at his body, done with this distance between us. “Yes, Alpha.Please.”

His huge hands caught me easily, and he pulled me tightly to his body, his hands remaining gentle. “Have you ever done anything like this before? The guys told me that your old home was pretty, uh, strict.”

I shook my head, hoping that I wasn’t too inexperienced for him. I didn’t want him to change his mind now, especially notwhen my body was humming at the very idea of what he was offering. “No, but I’m a quick learner.”

He laughed and rolled onto his back, dragging me up until I was chest to chest with him. “I bet you are. First, if it’s okay with you, I’m going to kiss you.”

I sucked in a deep, shuddering breath and held it. I held it even as his lips came towards mine. Held it as they brushed softly against my own. Let my lungs burn as his tongue dipped out and ran along the fullness of my bottom lip.

“Breathe, Paloma,” he whispered against me, and the breath whooshed out of me loudly.

“That was really nice. Everything I’d imagined,” I whispered, and he looked at me seriously.

“Was that your first kiss?” His eyes were burning with intensity, and my stomach felt like it was filled with butterflies. I nodded, making him groan. “I’m the luckiest bastard on the whole planet. But I can do better than nice.”

Shifting his head to the side, he plundered my mouth, his tongue licking against the seam of my lips until I opened for him. I did what felt natural, even if it was kind of awkward. Soon enough, I was too lost in his lips, in the soft noises he made, the scratch of his beard, the roaming of his palms to worry about the fact that I was awkward and that this probably felt terrible for him. Like there was too much saliva. Or my tongue wasn’t doing what it was supposed to. I mean, what was a tongue even meant to do?

I was selfish, because I didn’t care. I took and took and took from him until I was moaning softly into his mouth. He had somehow removed my underwear, and I only had one of Rio’s oversized shirts on. His fingers skimmed between my legs, and he sucked in my oxygen along with my tongue.

He moved his head away, breathing deeply. “Baby, you’re going to undo me, especially the way you’re grinding on mystomach.” I realized I was riding his abs, and my cheeks flushed. “I love it, Omega. But now I’m going to want you to do that to my face.”

I blinked down at him. “Your face?”

“My face. I’ll use my tongue to make you feel so good that you’ll be screaming my name.” He kissed me again, his tongue spearing between my lips like he was showing me what he was about to do to my… female parts.

I looked at my thighs spread around his torso. “Will you be able to breathe?”

He grinned, his straight white teeth flashing in the morning sun. “Not if I’m doing it properly.” He gripped my thighs and pulled me up his chest, and even that little bit of friction had me letting out a mewling sound. “Don’t worry, Sweet Thing. I’m going to enjoy every millisecond of this. Hold onto the headboard if you need to, and if you need to stop, just say the word, Paloma. This goes at your pace.”

Lifting me easily, he placed me on his face, and my eyes widened. His face was in the most private part of my body, and the idea almost made me recoil. Maybe I should tell him to stop? But then he leaned up and sucked something, and I felt like my body had been electrocuted.

“Oh my goddess,” I breathed as he eased off, but not for long. Soon, his tongue was sliding inside me, the sensation wholly foreign. He held me to his mouth, and for lack of a better term, fucked me with it. He moved me until his nose was hitting the sensitive little bud at the top of my folds. Something wasjustthere. Something big, something momentous, something that would change my life if I could just grab it.

Then I gripped the headboard as he sucked me hard, and that feeling was like falling into a vat of pure bliss. My whole body shuddered and convulsed, and the sound I made didn’t even appear to be human.

“Holy freaking heck,” I panted, my body feeling heavy and full.

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