Page 13 of Hawk's Sapphire

The front door swings open and I pull my hand back from his as Jake walks out heading straight for us.

“About fucking time, man.Come on.Pres is waiting on you inside.”He says, acting calm and casual, like it’s any other day at the clubhouse.

“Yeah, okay.One sec.”Hawk’s phone chimes and he immediately pulls it out of his pocket.His brow creases as he navigates the screen.I can’t see what he’s looking at but make a mental note to check the clone later.Jake’s standing there looking between the two of us, his brow raised and smug smile.

“Well, good morning you two.”He says, wrapping me in a side hug, giving me a kiss on the temple.Hawk growls behind me.Jake’s like a brother to me and kissing my temple is something he’s done a thousand times, but Hawk is acting like an ass.

He claimed you.

He’s delusional.It was the heat of the moment.He didn’t mean it.Right?

“Hey.”My reply comes out shaky and unsure.Jake’s eyes narrow in on my features, then back to Hawk.His gaze flicks to mine momentarily then back to his phone looking pissed

What is that all about?

“We’ll be right in.”Hawk says, his voice tight, full of anger.My eyes snap to his, and I’m right.Jake nods taking his leave back inside the clubhouse.

“We need to talk.”Hawk says his voice tight.“My room.Now.”

He pockets his phone then taking my hand drags me through the clubhouse, past the guys all standing in the common area with the Sheriff and Allyson.Past Jake and Avery holding each other near the bar.Gabe sees us, giving us a puzzled once over, but Hawk doesn’t stop.

Once we get to his room, he pulls me inside and slams the door locking it behind him.

“What the fuck is this?”He points to his phone where a video is open, playing silently.It’s the security footage from last night when I let Thomas down into the basement.

I stand stuck in place, terrified.I knew he would find out, but I didn’t know Tate was going to show him now, before I could escape.

“Sit your ass on that bed and don’t you fucking move until I tell you.”Hawk starts the video over, this time with the sound on.I take a seat like he said silently trembling, tears welling up in my eyes as he watches how I betrayed him and the club.

The video cuts off just before I left the room, leaving Thomas and Nate alone, which makes no sense.Why would Tate cut off the video before showing them that I left making it look like I could’ve killed Nate when it was Thomas who killed him?He was alive when I left.I knew what Thomas was going to do, but I didn’t do it.I left.But Hawk can’t see that.

“Start fucking talking Sadie.”He growls.“How the fuck did you get down there, and what the hell were you doing?How the fuck did Thomas get in there with you?”

“Look,” I start, my hands instinctively going up in front of me pleading with him to hear me out.He’s visibly shaking with rage.Hawk would never hurt me, but I still feel the need to be on guard for anything.“I can explain.Just, calm down.Let’s have a seat a-and I can tell you what you need to know.”

“How about you cut the shit and just tell me everything?”He steps forward, moving closer and I scoot back.He looks at me like I’ve lost my damn mind.He could easily catch me and tie my ass up if he wanted to.I’ve heard the rumors about the kind of shit he gets up to in here, thetoolshe uses with the club girls.

Jealousy courses through me at the thought, but the desire to save my own ass and escape is a more pressing matter that needs all of my focus and attention.

“I-I let Thomas into the basement.He wanted to talk to Nate.He wanted me to hear the truth about what happened the night Maggie died.He was trying to…”

“He was using you.What the hell did you think?He was going to talk to Nate and tell you how none of this was ever any of Thomas’s fault and you’d suddenly have a father again?”He snaps.“Are you that fucking delusional?”

“Like you, I don’t have a father, nor do I want one.I was helping him find out the truth about what happened because Thomas was tricked into believing something different was going to happen.They used him to get to Jonah and Maggie.He was a fucking pawn in their game, and he wanted me to know…”

“He wanted you to believe his bullshit and feel sorry for him, Sadie!He was playing you to get to Nate.Thomas went down there with the intention of killing Nate to silence him.And keep him from tellinguswhat we need to know.Thomas was covering his own ass.”Hawk shouts in my face, his arms flung out to his sides as he shakes his head.He takes a step back dragging his hand through his hair, his eyes burning with so much hate, my heart aches.“You fucking believed him and went behind the club’s back and fucking helped him.Same old Sadie.Thinking only of yourself.Do you ever give a shit about the consequences of your actions and what it could mean for us?For this club?Your family?How fucking selfish can you possibly be?”

There’s a sound in my head, like glass shattering against a wall, but I know it’s not real.

You knew this was coming.He would hate you eventually.

But I didn’t know it would hurt like this.

My temper flares.The truth on the tip of my tongue, wanting to escape, to prove to Hawk that all I’ve ever cared about was this club and the people in it.To tell him how I did what I did to save them!But I can’t.It wouldn’t matter if I did.He won’t believe me anyway.

Tears are streaming freely down my cheeks, but I’m too pissed to fucking care.“I’m not naïve, you big jackass.Your father isn’t the only one who fucked people over in this club.Thomas was looking to redeem himself.To get Nate…”

“Redeem himself?Do you hear yourself?There’s no redemption for what they’ve done!Have you lost your fucking mind?You think that what?If Nate says Thomas was the fall guy for Jonah’s death and that he was somehow not clued into the plan when they killed Maggie that somehow it would absolve Thomas of the part he played in everything?Seriously?”Hawk steps closer, invading my space.My heart is thumping so hard in my chest, I wonder if he can hear it.There’s a lump in my throat.My anger at war with my heartache.I want to punch him-to beat his ass and remind him that I’m not the selfish little shit he thinks I am.He taught me how to help people.How to be loyal and love with all I fucking have in me.To putthis family first.

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