Page 39 of Hawk's Sapphire

But could I let Matteo teach me?

“Dolcezza.”Matteo lifts my chin forcing my eyes to his.“Are you all right?”

I nod, but he’s not satisfied.His eyes are searching mine.I try again.“Yes, Sir.”

“Hmmm.”His lips are pinched.He’s too observant.

“First, we’re going to a private room where I have left clothes out for you to change into.You must always look and act the part of my submissive.Once you are changed, we will come back down to the bar and have a drink.Since you are underage you will not be given any alcohol on the floor.However, if you feel you need something to take the edge off your nerves, I will provide you with a drink in our room.”He pauses waiting for my acknowledgment.

“Yes, please, sir.I think a drink may help my nerves.”It’s his turn to nod.

“The first floor is like any other night club you may have been to.There’s music, dancing, a bar and areas to sit and talk.We will start there.We will also get a contract.You will fill it out with your likes and dislikes as if we were really entering into a relationship.It’s for your safety, but also for appearances.We want people to see us negotiating our terms.Understand?”

I’m struggling to keep up.My brain tripping over everything he’s said.I never considered having to sign a contract or admit toMatteowhat my sexual interests are.I’m not a prude, but I’ve only had sex a couple of times.The night with Hawk is the kinkiest thing I’ve ever done, and we didn’t do much compared to what I’ve heard Hawk likes or has done with others.

I feel the burn of white-hot jealousy thrumming through my veins.

Don’t think about him.

Anger surges through me and for some reason Iwantto fill out the paperwork.I want to discover my own interests and desires.Maybe I’ll learn something about myself in this process.Not that I plan to come back here after everything is over, but what can it hurt to explore?Matteo may not be my first choice to discover things with, but at least I know I’m safe with him and he wouldn’t do anything to hurt me emotionally.I don’t know where he stands on mixing pain with pleasure, but I have a feeling he’s the type to have a firm hand.

“I understand, Sir.”

Matteo smiles at my response, rubbing his thumb gently across my jaw soothingly.“We will watch some demonstrations.At my request, tonight they will focus on beginner’s pleasure and submission.If something interests you, we can try those in our private room.Sometimes observing can become arousing.If you become too aroused and feel you need a release, I will help you with that if you wish.What wewill notbe doing is having sex.This is to get you used to being around people in all states off undress and in various acts of sex.I don’t know which type of auction we will be attending or what we may encounter.You need to be able to handle whatever is thrown at you, so to speak.”

“According to Sergio, if they throw something at me, I can pick it up and throw it back harder so long as I don’t miss.”Matteo’s lips curl in small hint of a smile.

“Dolcezza, you must understand this is not a game.If you are uncomfortable or show fear, the people at the auction parties will know, and they will use it to their advantage.They’re not just looking for people to buy and sell.They’re looking for people to bend and break.If you do not show fear, if you cannot be broken, you will perceivably go up in value to them.Do you understand?”

“If I seem unbreakable, I’m more of a challenge.Is that it?”

“Yes.Breaking the unbreakable doesn’t just get these men off, it’s how they show the others their dominance and power.”He says.“They believe breaking a person’s spirit is power.It’s not.A weak man preys on the weak because he cannot win in a real fight.”

I nod.I understand what he’s saying.It’s been drilled into me from the first time we spoke about our plans months ago.We have to appear as though this is our normal routine.It has to look as though we attend places like this all the time and I need to come off as someone who thrives on being submissive to my Dom.

“I know you have an aversion to taking orders, and you have a strong independent will, but you will need to forget both of those things while you are with me no matter who is around.You must follow my instructions to a T, Dolcezza.There is no room for attitude or defiance unless you want me to spank your ass in front of everyone in attendance.Because that’s what I will have to do.”

I squeeze my thighs, and Matteo smirks.

“You like the idea of having your ass spanked.”He says his voice void of judgment.“If you want to experience what it’s like to give over control to me, Dolcezza, to know what it’s like to not have to make any decisions and lay down any guilt you may be harboring, I can help you.We won’t go any further than to release your emotions.Understand?”

Is he really offering to spank my ass?

Am I really considering letting him?

Whoa!

Matteo watches me closely and chuckles, rubbing his thumb across my creased brow.“Relax, Sadie.You’re intrigued.It’s normal.Everyone has things they wish to try, but don’t always ask for what they need.I’m not going to exploit you or take advantage of our situation.I’m simply offering to let you explore your needs and interests.Nothing more.You will always be safe with me, Dolcezza.You have my word.Anything we do will be strictly for your knowledge and experience, and I can promise I would bring you pleasure.”

“And what would you get out of that?If it’s all for my pleasure?”I ask on a whimper.What the hell is wrong with me?

Matteo chuckles.“I am not a selfish Dom.I can give pleasure and not take any for myself.Besides, I can assure you, you aren’t ready for my particular tastes in pleasure.”

Holy hell.

Matteo chuckles again, kissing my forehead.A subtle gesture I’ve gotten used to him doing.“I can tell I’ve stunned you.Come on.We’ll take it one step at a time Let’s go get you changed.”

I don’t know how to process everything he’s just said.But I think he just offered to spank my ass and teach me about my own kink preferences without getting himself off.But why wouldn’t we have to have sex?

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