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HAWK

I saw the minute Sadie left the clubhouse.I almost followed her out to the lot and cornered her then but decided to wait.Skyler said Sadie went home because she was feeling sick.I call bullshit.I know Sadie.She seemed fine until Vincenzo and that asshole went over to talk to her.Did he do something to upset her?

Maybe Matteo finally put an end to their little game.

That would certainly be a relief.I can’t stand seeing them together.There’s just something about the way she backs down andlistenswhen he tells her something.The girl doesn’t listen for shit.She does what she wants, consequences be damned.Hell, she’ll even do it while giving two birds and a smile to anyone who tells her she shouldn’t.It makes me wonder if he’s not blackmailing her.

Sitting on my bike, I let Sadie leave the clubhouse and watch the tracker on Loretta as it blinks on my phone.When she stops at her house and doesn’t leave again after a few minutes, I check her cameras and find her starting a fire in the firepit on her back patio.She hates when I hack into her cameras.It’s become a game for us - to see who can fuck over who when it comes to stalking her.I hack her system, track her phone and her car, because Mack asked me to, of course.And Sadie cuts the trackers off or moves them to some other vehicle.A few times she’s been able to knock me out of her security and camera system.I always get back in and find a way to get the trackers back on Loretta, and the game starts over again.

Once she has the fire lit, she snuggles up in a blanket in a lounge chair.I zoom in and watch as she opens the music app on her phone and selects a playlist.I can’t hear the music, but I know the moment it turns on because she starts to sway a little to the beat.It would seem like a typical night at home for her if it wasn’t for the fact she just took a long drink of whiskey straight out of the bottle.

Now I know something’s up.Tequila is Sadie’s relax and have a good time drink.Margaritas are the girl’s best friend.Whiskey is herI don’t want to feel anythingdrink.It numbs the pain and shuts her brain off.I know because not only have I heard her say it to Jinx and Avery, but it does the same thing for me.

Starting up my bike, I head out, waving to Mason as I pass through the gate and head her way.I’m still feeling a bit of a buzz, but it’s not from the few beers I had.My head is clear.I know enough to know what I’m about to do is the right thing and has been a long time coming.We need to have a conversation about her and Vincenzo’s second in command and why hse needs to stopping fucking around with him.This shit’s gone on long enough.

Sadie’s house isn’t far from the clubhouse, but I take long way to gather my thoughts, working through what I’ll do when I get there.I don’t know what I’ll say.It’s been a long time since Sadie has confided in me about the things going on in her life and what bothers her.She used to tell me everything, but when I started prospecting, I had to take a step back.By the time I got my patch, Sadie was no longer the little girl who told me all her secrets.She was a woman I wanted to explore from head to toe, but knew I couldn’t have.I wanted her.I’ve always fucking wanted her, but there are so many reasons I shouldn’t.

But you still do.

It’s time she knew.

I’m certain she’s going to tell me to fuck off and try to send me on my way, but I won’t leave.Not until we’re gotten things straight between us.Oh, she’ll argue and have something smart to say.Like always, but I won’t be detoured.I know she wants me.Every time we’re in the same room together everyone can feel the sparks between us.Most people see us and think we fight because we’re too much alike.But I know that’s not it.We argue because we’re both fighting a losing battle, but neither one wants to cave first in case we go up in flames and it all goes to shit.But no more.I’m going to find out what’s got her so upset, find a way to fix it, then I’m going to make her listen to fucking reason.

She’ll fight you.Fight this.Maybe even physically.

My dick jumps and a wicked smile forms at the thought of Sadie trying to spar with me.She’s a sneaky little shit.She trains with Skyler and Anna at the gym regularly, hellbent she won’t ever need a man to save her ass.If she only knew all the times I’ve intercepted her bullshit online and kept her out of fucking jail.

I’ll just have to get a little more creative if I want her to listen.Maybe I’ll make her my captive.

I smile to myself at all the creative ways I can convince her to listen to reason.All of them involving restraints, a gag, and her naked on a bed.My cock throbs at the idea.

I’m always one step ahead, except when she helped Avery, but I wasn’t expecting her to fuck with the West’s.Until recently, most of us didn’t know Russell or Avery had anything to do with the club.Some of us were too young to know, and the old timers kept their secrets to themselves.

I’ve been fighting my feelings for Sadie for a long time now, because she deserves better than the club life.Mack wants her to go to college and find herself a good, safe job and marry someone whose successful and stable.Far away from the bullshit Thomas and Nate’s traitorous actions caused.We all know she feels guilty for who her father is, what he did.

Sound familiar?

I push all thoughts of the bastard in the basement from my mind.

Mack doesn’t seem to be bothered by seeing Sadie with Matteo.Maybe he thinks it’s a good match.Or maybe he doesn’t think it will go anywhere because Sadie is a wild one.She doesn’t like to be held back, told what to do.But there’s something about the way she melts into Matteo’s touch and doesn’t fight him when he calls her on her shit, it’s like a knife twisting in my gut.

She’s not his.

She’s,mySapphire.

Shit.

I pull into her driveway, parking my bike in front of the first garage door, the one I know Loretta sits behind.I doubt she’d try to run from me, but Iknowshe would never risk running over my bike to escape me.She understands the respect have for my bike.She shares the same love for her Challenger.

I leave my helmet on the handlebars and follow the scent of firewood burning and the soft glow of twinkle lights coming from the side of the house.The porch wraps around the house to the backyard where I find Sadie still cuddled up beside the fire.She hasn’t moved from the spot she was when I checked the cameras only now that I see the bottle, it’s almost half empty.

Did she drink all of that already?

She doesn’t see me, but I know she heard me pull up.She’s got her phone in her hand.Exasperation is written all over her face.

“Do I need to send someone to help you, Dolcezza?”Matteo’s voice comes over the speaker on her phone.“It’s not good for you to be alone when you’re upset like this.”

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