Page 2 of Sabastian

“And...”

“And you don’t like men who are that feminine.”

“How do you know what I like?A man can change.I was married once to a woman and a gay man who carried a bag.We broke up and that’s why I have this large home I can’t sell, and that’s why you’re here and telling me what I want.”

“I’m just concerned about you.Since your divorce, and your dead partner, and your recent breakup with Eric, you haven’t been on a date in—”

“A year,” I added.“There’s nothing out there for me.Nothing I want I didn’t have in life.”

“There’s nothing in here for you either except a fantasy.You need to get out and live.”

“And you need to get out and leave me alone,” I mumbled.

He took a few steps, and said, “What good will it do for me to knock?You’re putting on your shoes and watching that thing at the same time?”

“It would be something that you should do if you want to live here.Remember this is my home and you’re just the guest—”

“A guest you begged to come stay with you when your wife left, and then your partner convinced you to stay in this monstrosity of a house, and he died on you.Look around.Who needs a five-bedroom home with five baths.You don’t even have children, let alone a partner any more.And don’t look at me, I’m taken, and soon I will be gone, and you won’t have me to kick around even if it’s for a week.No, don’t look at me like that.Get a dog if you’re going to be lonely.Or better yet, put yourself out there and email that man or text him.”

“He probably has someone.He’s a You Tube content creator, hot with millions of followers, and he’s not looking for a middle-aged man like myself.Look at him, he looks like he could fuck and suck all night and never come up for air, ” I reluctantly admitted.

“Are you kidding me?You’re fucking thirty-something the way you keep your body and the way you eat, and you’re super-hot yourself.If I wasn’t taken, I’d say let’s make a go of it.”

There was no way in hell I would consider Jason.“No don’t look at me like that because I know if we both got desperate on a cold night, and ended up in bed together, we’d hate each other in the morning for ruining a good relationship,” I admitted.

“Just concentrate on that dude you’re fascinated with.He’s the safest thing you’ll ever find.Just keep watching his channel and jerking yourself off, and you don’t have to put yourself out there.You want safe, well, that’s as safe as it gets.You’re in your bed watching that behemoth of a television jerking off to a man you can’t touch or feel.Me, I like reality and my reality is I can’t afford to live alone, and I haven’t found a man who will take in a dude who’s supporting himself with odd jobs.That reminds me, your air conditioner is going out.It’s only going to cost a few thousand if I do the work.”

Oh, for fuck’s sake.I’d rather pay someone to take care of my air-conditioner than have Jason fucking around with it.But he was the type who wouldn’t take charity.

“If you get out of here, I’ll go with you and your friends and we can discuss the air system tomorrow.”

“I can get you a date—”

“I’ll find my own, thank you very much.What are we, in high school?Now fuck off.”He glared at me and hunched his shoulders.

When I thought he would leave, he said, “When you come begging for my help, remember what I said.It’s cold out there for a gay man your age, even if you have money and you’re super-hot.You don’t have too many more years, that goodlooking face and hard body will only get you so far, and the way you’ve become a hermit after being the playboy of the century, it’s just not right.”He shook his head.“There should be a law the way you’ve kept yourself off the market.”

There should be a law to arrest anyone who kept friends like Jason.

Glaring at Jason, wishing he’d leave me alone with my thoughts for once.“Have you finished?Then take your happy ass on, and let me get ready for another disappointment.”

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