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“Robby, it’s time to get dressed and when are you getting a job?I can’t keep paying you to edit my videos.I could get a good editor for half of what I’m giving you.”

“Didn’t you say you were making a lot of money.You can afford to pay me more, then maybe I’ll give you better.”I climbed out of the bed away from Robby because I’d had enough of him.

Standing over him with a surly glare, with him lying in my bed since I was out, he had a way of taking over my life.“I pay for everything.You don’t have to pay for an apartment and food.I even give you extra money for gas and I pay you a lot.A lot more than you’re worth.”

“I’m your friend, isn’t that worth something?”No use arguing with him.

“If you add all that up including I just leased you a car, and pay for the lease what more could you want?”I headed to the ensuite hoping he’d consider what I’d just said.With Robby that was a waste of my time and breath.

Chapter 17

Cameron

Icouldn’t wait toleave this party even though we’d been here for all of an hour.Everyone was friendly, drinks were flowing and free, but I wasn’t in the mood, nor did I have anything in common with these men if you omitted Kyle and Don.I didn’t know Justin that well, and it had been through business and our relationship was sort of transactional.I bought expensive cars, and he sold them and owned a garage to keep them running and when I got tired of them, he sold them for me.

However, I rarely used them lately.I glanced at my stale drink and let out a sigh.Few if anyone heard, but the bored look written across my face said it all, and if anyone took the time to observe me they would know immediately.

What was there to be excited about?No one at the party was my age except maybe Justin who was in his thirties, but everyone else was ten or twenty years my junior.I could remember it was a party just like this where I met Brett, and I didn’t want to be reminded of him.Even the peace I’d enjoyed since I tried to forget my loss would be shattered.

However, wasn’t that the reason I was in New York, to remember how I felt when Brett was alive.It came to me this moment I’d been living in the past, and it was time to let that go.It was a life that wasn’t returning, and I had to find another life and go on.I thought I had discovered how to forget Brett, but I was too stubborn to admit I was wrong and because of that I was here alone.Well not really alone because I have Kyle, Jason, and Don.

“Why don’t you socialize, there are people I want you to meet,” Jason said, standing in front of me after he showed up without me noticing him.He had flown in a day earlier.I suspected he had been in one of the rooms with a friend.He handed me a drink from a tray a passing waiter held.I took a sip and gazed at Jason’s flushed cheery face.

“I’m a people watcher,” I said to prevent Jason from pulling me out of my protective shell.“I go to parties and observe others having fun.”Not really.I just didn’t feel like explaining why I didn’t want to be here.

“What kind of BS is that, Cameron?You used to be full of life, and since you’ve turned forty, you behave like an old man.Look around, you have some of the most beautiful boys in this city waiting for a man like you, and anyone of them can make you come alive.Take Gram, he loves to dress up in women’s clothes and make all your fantasies come true.”

Although Gram had on a beautiful suit you never would expect that from him.However, his gestures at closer examination, he did act more feminine than the guys here.The way he held his head and his hands would give him away.

“You take Gram,” I said, “because I’m not looking for a boy who wants to be a girl.”

“He likes to dress like that, but I can assure you he’s all man.Take my word for it.”If I knew Jason, and I did, then he had been around and he was speaking from experience.

“Oh, I’ll take your word.But I’m—” Before I could say more, Jason added, “Look at him.Isn’t he super cute.Well, he likes to suck cock.That’s all he likes to do.He doesn’t even want you to penetrate him.He gets off just from sucking cock, can you believe it?”

“Yes, I can believe it because he’s an associate of mine, and at this time he’s living in one of my homes until I sell it.He house sits for me.”Jason plopped down next to me and placed his arm behind my back.

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