Page 123 of Being Lost

He might have chuckled, but there’s derision in it instead of mirth. “Nah, babe. Not me. Not my men.”

“But he’s no longer able to bother me?” As the words sink in, it feels like an enormous weight has been lifted and I hardly dare believe what it means. “I’m free? Dan’s free? Dan can go back to being Connor again? Oh my God, Lost. This is amazing news.”

“Yeah, I suppose it is.”

“You’re not happy?” I ask, incredulously.

“He died before I could question him,” he replies grumpily. “Now we’ll never know why he was after you.”

“I don’t care. He’s gone. That’s all that matters to me.” He’s no longer a threat to me or my family. The implications start to sink in. “I can see Beth. Oh, Lost, do you see what this means? I can be there when my grandchild is born.” Impulsively I pull myself up and leaning over, kiss him. “This is the best news you could have given to me.”

He gives me a small smile. “I don’t like loose ends.”

A thought occurs to me. “Is everyone okay? No one hurt?”

“Everyone’s fine, babe. It’s just been a long night.”

He needs his sleep. I snuggle back into position again, but I can feel his heart racing, beating as fast as my own. On my part it’s because this man has righted my world. He’s done exactly what he said he would do, he’s taken on my enemy and kept me safe while he did. Do I feel sorry a man has been killed? A few months ago, I never thought I could be bloodthirsty, but Alder’s no normal man. It’s only by chance that the Devils found my son and rescued him, otherwise he’d be dead. I could never forgive him for that.

“Patsy.” Suddenly Lost moves, and I’m on my back with him looming over me. “I can’t sleep,” he tells me.

“I may have a remedy to help,” I brazenly reply.

“Fuck woman, have you any idea how much you mean to me? And you’re all mine now.”

His mouth lowers, he takes my lips. Our tongues meet and dance, then he pulls away. Lifting the t-shirt of his that I wore to bed, he pulls it right off, feasting his eyes on my breasts, lavishing attention on my nipples, before telling me, “Gonna eat you out now.”

Yes please.

Already familiar with my body he doesn’t need long before I’m twisting the sheets in my hands and crying out his name. Then, pausing only to don a condom, and apply lube, he’s inside me.

Both of us sigh.

He proceeds to do what he does so well, that bucking, twisting action with his hips. It’s not just his physical prowess, but when he meets my eyes, holding my gaze, signalling all the emotion he feels for me, mine signalling all of mine back, that makes our lovemaking something that could not be bettered.

We come, together. Then clutch at each other, holding each other close. Slowly our heart rates return to normal, then our breathing slows. Held tight in each other’s arms, we fall asleep together.

It’s an anti-climax in many ways, I think to myself, some hours later. Almost as if the last couple of days hadn’t happened. Lost has disappeared to talk to Token in his office, Dan’s gone with Salem to the hangar they’re converting into a custom bike workshop. Other brothers are hanging around, playing pool or just talking and drinking.

The atmosphere has changed, instead of quiet and secrecy, the men are speaking loudly again, mainly about bikes.

In one corner Pennywise is getting a tattoo on his arm.

The door opens, and a child’s cry has me turning around. Alex is walking in, preceded by a young boy I haven’t yet met, though who I’ve heard about, and a fussy baby in her arms. I hurry across to meet her.

“Can I take her?”

“Please do,” Alex laughs. “She’s teething. Poor kid has had it rough, temperature and a rash. That’s why I’ve not been around for a couple of days. Hey, Tyler. Say hello to Patsy.”

Tyler comes over with a swagger that reminds me of Dart. He stops in front of me and looks me up and down. “Pleased to meetcha,” he says at last.

“He’s nine, going on an old man.” Alex’s eyes are full of laughter, but also pride as she looks at her son.

“Can I go find Eva?” Tyler asks.

“Um, I think she’s busy right now,” I tell them, having seen her go off with Dusty awhile back.

“Hey, Ty. Come here a moment,” Blaze calls out, winking at Alex.

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