Page 54 of Hide or Die

I carefully avoided the twist of silvery scar tissue behind his cock, not sure he’d appreciate having it touched and not wanting to break the mood by asking. Eventually, the well-lubricated toy slid inside his body without much drama, and I paused to look down at him.

“Is that all right?” I asked. “How does it feel?”

He wriggled his hips, frowning a bit. “I’m... not sure yet. Strange. Full.” He levered himself onto his side among the pillows and stilled, as though listening to his body. “Let me get used to it for a bit. In the meantime, I want to see you come for me.”

My body tightened at his words, and I didn’t argue as he laid me on my back and started kissing his way down, pausing to lick and suck at first one nipple, and then the other. A moan escaped me as his teeth grazed the tender flesh, and another pulse of slick dribbled out of me. His hand ghosted across my stomach, and he cupped me between my legs.

The difference with the alpha pheromones was night and day. Iwanted, but not with the mindless, animal need of heat. Kam’s fingers delved through my folds, the sensation jolting along nerves that normally slept undisturbed.

“Oh, god,” I breathed, as his thumb circled my clit.

He gave my nipple a final kiss and straightened, looking down at me. “Do you want the cock now?”

I nodded, breathless. “Yes, give it to me, please,odama.”

I was still on my back, and didn’t feel the urge to roll over and present on all fours like I had during heat. Kam gave my folds a final caress and retrieved the dildo, rearranging us so my legs were splayed open and he was kneeling between them. He winced a bit and caught his breath as he settled into place—presumably when the toy shifted inside his ass.

Kam rested his right hand palm-down on my lower abdomen, steadying me. “You’re so wet for it, Leo. You’redripping.”

That sounded right, because when the blunt end of the dildo nudged at my entrance, my whole body felt like it was melting. I whimpered and curled my hips toward the fake dick, feeling it slide inside me without resistance. Kam worked it in and out of me, murmuring endearments and stroking my clit in time with his gentle thrusts.

“So beautiful,” he murmured, as my body undulated, chasing the sensations.

Ilovedthis feeling, free of the mindlessness and stress of a disastrous heat cycle. “Why—” I cut off with a gasp as the pleasure spiked momentarily. “Why didn’t we do this sooner?”

He chuckled, a low, dark sound. “Because it’s illegal, probably.”

“So’s everything—ah!—everything else,” I managed, past the upward spiraling sensation that was gradually swallowing my thoughts. “When you’re us...”

“True,” he agreed. “Maybe it’s time to stop caring about any of it.”

I certainly didn’t care about any of it right now. My heart was racing, my nerves tingling. “Give me the knot,” I begged. “Please, Kam, I need it...”

Kam thrust in, and my entrance stretched, struggling to accommodate the flare above the base of the dildo. I groaned loudly, writhing, and it slipped inside to the hilt, filling me perfectly. Pleasure crashed over me, and I came hard, clamping around it, the scent of metal and sage in my nose.

“Fuck,” I wheezed, once the waves receded, leaving me dizzy.

“Wow,” Kam said, sounding a bit taken aback. “That looked... good?”

“Good, yeah,” I managed. “That was definitely good.”

Every breath sent a little buzz of sensation outward from the toy knotting me. With uncoordinated movements, I manhandled Kam around and onto his back so I could get at his body.

I want to lick your clit and fuck you with one of those dildos, while you suck my cock and fuck me with the other one, he’d said.I want to drown in you and penetrate you and be penetrated by you.

My inner thighs were soaked. I fumbled my way to his slender, beautiful cock and stroked my fingertips over it before reaching back to tap the base of the dildo in an irregular rhythm. His entire body twitched beneath me. He hooked an arm beneath my thigh and dragged me around until I was straddling his face.

His elegant fingers framed my hips, pulling me down to meet his mouth. At the first stroke of his tongue, my internal muscles rippled around the dildo. I cried out and fell forward, getting a hand around his dick and licking across the head. His answering moan vibrated along my folds.

This was what he’d wanted, andgod, did he have good ideas. I didn’t honestly have any clue what I was doing, when it came to sucking cock. I figured the term was fairly self-explanatory, though, so I wrapped my lips around his tip and hollowed my cheeks. He squirmed and gasped, his length stiffening in my mouth for a moment or two before subsiding again.

We licked and sucked and writhed against each other. Unbidden, it occurred to me that in this position I was basically presenting. A mental image formed of crouching over Kam’s face like this while Jax pounded into me from behind, my mouth stuffed with Kam’s cock while Flynn took his ass at the same time. In my mind’s eye, Alex watched over us from the shadows with a hungry green gaze.

It was too much. With a high-pitched keen rising in the back of my throat, I came again, gushing slick over Kam’s face. He made a sound like a sob and shuddered beneath me, still licking into me. An odd sort of mellow, hazy ecstasy settled across my mind. I wrapped an arm around his thigh so I could reach the base of the toy inside him and grasped it, rocking it gently in and out as I continued to suck him lazily.

I don’t know how long we stayed like that, but my muscles finally stopped clamping the dildo in place. The scent of strange alpha and chemicals had begun to dissipate, and Kam was still a ball of shuddering tension beneath me. His intermittent, partial erection had faded along with the pheromones, and eventually he tapped my hip.

“Too much,” he gasped. “Stop... stop. It’s too much.”

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