Page 58 of Wonderstruck

yeah. big oh.

how long have you felt like this?

longer than i should’ve. but if i had to say when, i’d guess the morning after skating with you.

i think i realised that after just ten minutes on the ice, i was happier than I’d ever been being lectured about the justice system.

i see

i guess i was hoping it’d click eventually.

and it hasn’t?

not even a little.

A minute or so passed before my phone buzzed again.

why didn’t you say anything sooner?

i don’t know. i didn’t want to let anyone down, i guess.

rory.

what?

no one would be mad at you for thinking of yourself for once.

you don’t knowthat.

i do know that. all you do is think of others. is it so crazy to admit that you deserve to do something for you?

i don't think were at the stage yet where you can say things like that to me

i'm just being honest with a friend.

Friend.

Hear that brain? He said friend. Remember that.

and right now i think my friend should just leave her class if she's not enjoying it.

it’s not that simple.

it could be that simple. you just have to let it be.

easy for you. i bet all you have to do is stand in the sunlight long enough and your proffesors just pass you.

if that were true i wouldn't need you.

but thankfully i do.

i'll repeat. i don't think were at the stage where you can say things like that to me.

just leave class rory

you make it sound easy.

it probably won’t be for you, because you’re all good. but that doesn’t mean it won’t be worth it.

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