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“Yeah?” Jill replied without looking up from the phone. “I’m starving. I’m going to pick what I want and give you the phone because I don’t know what you like.”

“Can we hold off on the ordering for a minute?” she requested.

Jill looked up then, and her eyes bore into Enid’s before she locked her phone and put it on the sofa next to her. Jill had figured it out.

“I see.”

“I really like you.”

“It’s okay. You don’t have to make a big thing out of it.”

“I’m not trying to,” she said. “I just want to explain.”

“You really don’t have to, Enid. I get it,” Jill told her. “I’ve been dumped before. Not that this is an official dumping or anything; we weren’t together.”

“When I asked you out–”

“Enid?”

“Yeah?”

“Please stop.”

“Okay.”

“I like you,” Jill said. “I thought we were having a good time together. I kind of thought we could watch a movie tonight, and you’d stay over. If it was just to sleep, that would be fine, but if it was something more, I was okay with that, too.”

“I’m sorry.”

“You don’t feel it?”

Enid shook her head and said, “I wanted to.”

“Not the same thing, though.”

“No, it’s not.”

Jill sighed and said, “Then, I guess, I kind ofdowant you to explain. I didn’t think I did, but I do now. You said you wanted to go out with me again.”

“I did. I think I wanted to see if Icouldget there.”

“If you could convince yourself to want to sleep with me?”

“Oh, no; that’s not the issue. If I was just trying to sleep with you, that wouldn’t be a problem, Jill. You’re beautiful.”

“So, it’s my personality that you don’t like?”

“What? No. I love your personality.”

Jill shook her head and said, “I’m really confused now. You like my personality, and sleeping with me wouldn’t exactly be a chore. What’s the problem, Enid?”

Enid still wasn’t sure how to define what she was feeling, but Jill deserved an honest answer.

“I don’t feel that spark.”

Jill nodded and said, “Ah.”

“I hoped I would. I thought I would, but I don’t. And I don’t know that I will. You deserve to find someone who sparks with you, Jill.”

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