Page 23 of Atmosphere

“How is it a good thing? To be grumpy?”

“It gives you some much-needed dirt on your clothes.”

“What?”

“Otherwise, you’re a little too perfect,” Vanessa said. “Smart, well-rounded, always five minutes early, nice to everyone. A little edge to you is good.”

Joan turned to look at her. “I have plenty of edge to me.”

“I know. You’re grumpy and a little antisocial,” Vanessa said, sipping her beer again. “So am I. It’s nice to see.”

Joan frowned.

“It’s a compliment. You’re like Marlon Brando,” Vanessa said as she leaned in and shoved her shoulder into Joan’s.

Joan tried to maintain her frown, but it wasn’t working. “How am I anything like Marlon Brando?”

Vanessa put her beer down on a folding table covered with a vinyl tablecloth.

“Okay, so…” Vanessa said. “BeforeStreetcar,Marlon Brando was gorgeous, sure. But almost too beautiful. Maybe a little…boringly beautiful? But then, during the run of the play, he’s goofing around, boxing some guys backstage. He gets decked in the face, right across the nose. Pow!”

Vanessa mimicked somebody getting knocked out. Joan was trying to stay irritated, but it was a helium balloon and she was losing her grip on the string.

“Breaks his nose. He’s rushed to the hospital. The doctor does a shit job resetting it. It’s totally crooked. And the producer, I don’t remember her name, but it’s this woman and she goes to the hospital and she says, ‘Oh, no, Marlon, they’ve ruined your face.’ But he doesn’t care. He never gets it fixed. And he goes on to be a major star, bigger than anyone ever thought he’d be. And years later, she takes it back. It didn’t ruin his face, it enhanced his face. Somehow, with that crooked nose, he wasmorehandsome. He had been too perfect before. Now he had a flaw. Now he was somebody you could touch. He looked like the most handsome real man that ever lived, instead of some beautiful doll.”

“It made him interesting,” Joan said.

Vanessa snapped her fingers. “Exactly—it made him interesting.”

“So my not liking this party is my crooked nose?”

“When somebody’s too smooth, there’s nothing to grab on to. Now that you’ve got a little edge to you, I can hang on.”

“You didn’t like me before?”

“I have always liked you, Jo,” Vanessa said, picking up her beer. “You know that. I just like you more now.”

Joan nodded. “Well, thank you for comparing me to Brando, I guess. No one’s ever done that before.”

“You also look a little like Ingrid Bergman—not that you asked,” she said.

Joan tried to picture Ingrid Bergman.

“FromCasablanca,” Vanessa said.

“Oh,” Joan said. And then: “Oh, wow, that’s…that’s very nice. I’m not sure I see it, but thank you.” Joan just kept talking now, couldn’t stop herself. “First time I really met you, I thought you seemed like Cool Hand Luke. Not that you’re a man. Just…the attitude, maybe. Sorry, this is coming out wrong.”

Vanessa put her hand on Joan’s arm as if to stop her. “Joan,” she said.

Joan looked at her.

“That’s the nicest thing anyone’s ever said to me.”

Joan laughed. “It is?”

“Yes, it is. Thank you.”

“Oh, well, you’re welcome.”

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