Page 50 of Lost Lyrics

I said I wanted you to be happy; please pick up the phone

I said I was sorry, but we were doomed all along

I loved you

But I was nothing but a fool

I loved you

But I wasn’t strong enough to fight

I loved you

But I let you go to follow your dream

I loved you

But every day without you kills me inside

Kills me inside

I wiped my hand across my mouth and rubbed the tip of my chin. The backs of my eyes stung.

Shit!Were these lyrics about Tia? Their breakup?Fuck!

We’d all had some tumultuous relationships in the past. We’d all gone through too much heartache and pain. I hoped that was behind us. We’d found incredible partners. We’d settled down. Every time I talked to my friends, everyone seemed happy.

I was.

But as the days passed, it was impossible to ignore the draw I had toward the guys. When we were in the same city, the same venue, the same room, we gravitated toward each other. Our unwavering friendship and music had united us in irrevocable ways.Fuck!For the first time in months, my very bones craved playing with them. My body ached to feel the music reverberating through my veins. My soul hungered for fans to scream our names.

Shit!

I wasn’t ready to go back.

Am I?

I continued through the book, reading song after song. Each one stabbed my heart but filled it with warmth. Phil had been my best friend for fifteen years. I’d always love and remember him, the good times more than the bad.

Then, one page with lyrics and guitar chords written above them caught my eye. I grabbed my guitar and plucked out the tune. I read the words over and over again. What I strummed was Phil through and through. This song could have been about anyone, but deep down, I sensed it was about us guys.

If you’re feeling down, you know you just gotta holler

If you’re happy, I’ll be the first to cheer ya

If you’re sad, I’ll be the shoulder for you to cry on

If you’re in the mood to party, I’ll bring over the liquor

So we can laugh, dance, and drink until your worries disappear

Or we can sing, scream, and shout until the neighbors call the cops in

I’ll stand by you for every up and down we face

We’ll take on the world together, every challenge we’ll embrace

We’ll soar through the stars, never let our feet touch theground

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