Your smile is like sunshine every day I’m with you
Your love is the cure, nothing else will ever do
I need you real bad
I need you in my bed
I need you at night
I need to hold you so tight
I’m feeling this vibe
Burning deep inside
This fever’s getting hotter
My heartbeat stronger
I’m dancing on a high
Yeah,
I’m feeling this vibe
After that, I said hello to the crowd, then sang another couple of tracks. We churned out a medley of popular songs from our past albums. Cole pummeled out a solo on the drums. Slip and I dueled on our guitars and Lewis joined us, strumming a wicked rhythm on his bass.
Then it was time to slow things down with our song dedicated to Phil. Our song with a twist—one of his that we’d tweaked, like Phil was talking to us. Slip had insisted we perform it. We couldn’t have done this on our last tour; we were still processing his death. Now, the timing was perfect. As we sat on stools at the front of the stage with acoustic guitars in hand, and Cole with a single tom, photos of Phil were projected onto the video screens. I had to dig deep to bury the onslaught of memories and emotions, but I was no longer crippled by grief. We’d had a fun-filled, crazy life together. We’d made music. We were family. I’d love and remember him forever. He’d watch over us...always. I drew in a deep breath and sang in a low, sultry voice, slow and husky, just above a whisper:
Could you not see I was hurting inside?
Could you not tell, or were you blind?
Did you not know how much I cared?
Do you know I loved what we’d shared?
I’m sorry I had to leave, yeah, I had to go
Leaving you was hard, just so you know
Loving you was the best thing I’ve ever done
We had it good, yeah, we had so much fun
I see you’ve moved on with someone new
It kills me, but I’m happy for you
I wish you were here by my side
I miss you always, I cannot lie
I hope some days you remember me
The good times we had are hard to beat
There were times when we were up and we were down