Page 21 of Jaded Red

“You’re such a bastard.” Nadia laughs.

“That’s a Royal Bastard to you, Pulchra.” I grin. I take Nadia’s slender hand in mine and bring it to my chest. “Want to tell me what really set you off last night?”

Nadia shrugs her shoulders and won’t look at me. I raise her chin until she is forced to meet my gaze. I raise an eyebrow waiting for her to tell me. “Fine. But you’re going to think I’m an idiot.”

“No, I won’t. Anything you tell me will be between the two of us and I would never think you’re an idiot.” I answer with conviction. The last thing she could ever be is dumb. “You’re the most resilient, smart, beautiful woman I’ve ever had the pleasure of knowing.”

“It’s just,” Nadia pauses. “We don’t know much about each other. I know nothing about your past and what made you the way you are. I don’t know how many people you’ve slept with or if you’ve ever been in love. I don’t know if you have always been outside of the law or where you’re from. Shit, Matt, I don’t even know your last name or if Matt is your real name. I knownothing about you except the way you make me feel alive with every touch. Make me feel cherished and wanted with the way you look at me.” My face turns a deep shade of red hearing the way I make her feel. “And that blush is the most intimate thing about you that I really enjoy.”

I clear my throat in an attempt to calm my racing heart and blushing face. “Well, that’s a lot to unpack. I’ll make a deal with you.”

“I’m listening.”

“I will answer every question you have under one condition.”

“What’s that?”

“You don’t think differently of me when you find out the truth and won’t use it against me.” I look into Nadia’s whiskey-colored eyes and the sight still takes my breath away. “There are parts of my past I’m not proud of. I’ve done things I wish I could change but I can’t. The only thing I can do is learn from them and move forward.”

“Deal, but you have to promise me something in return.” Nadia looks uncomfortable and unsure. A total contrast to the confident woman from the bar who came on to me.

“What’s that?”

“I might screw up a few times. When I do, talk to me. Don’t go on a drunken bender again and make me have to kick your ass. I’ve dealt with abusers, alcoholics and drug addicts for many years and I don’t want to deal with it anymore.”

“Deal but you will have to let Kensi know we're on the same page. She was the one that stopped me from talking to you last night, which only pissed me off further.”

“I know. She and I had it out pretty good last night after the incident.” Nadia’s stomach growls and she grins.

“Let’s get you and our baby some food and bring it back here.” I climb out of the bed and offer my hand to Nadia. She takes it and pulls herself up. The top of her head is level with mychin and I can’t help but pull her against me. Her soft curves fit perfectly against my hard ones. Nadia’s arms wrap around my waist and she lays her head on my bare chest. “God, you feel wonderful in my arms.” My body is alive from her touch. My heart is pounding against my chest, my jeans are tightening and my soul feels complete. “I never thought I’d get to do this again, Pulchra and I’m honored you are trusting me.”

Nadia lifts her head to look me in the eyes, “What does that mean?”

“Pulchra is Latin for beautiful.”

Nadia raises on her tiptoes and brings a hand up to the back of my head, creating a shiver down my spine. Her soft lips land on mine and I return her kiss with every beat of my heart. I cup her cheeks and explore her mouth with my tongue. She moans and I swallow it up pulling her closer to me. My body is on fire and she’s the one lighting the match. It’s one of the most intimate kisses we’ve ever shared and I don’t want to stop. I want to ravish every inch of her body and bring her pleasure like she’s never experienced it before.

Nadia pulls away first, breaking our kiss. “Matt, I need you.” She’s pleading with me to make the ache go away. I lift her and she wraps her legs around my waist, grinding onto me.

“Fuck, Nadia.” I groan against her lips. “Are you sure?”

“I’m more than sure, Matt. I need you to make me forget all the bad and focus on the good.”

“You’ll tell me if it gets to be too much or something triggers right?”

“Yes, I will.” Nadia agrees.

I kiss her again pressing my hardness against her core and Nadia moans. I lift the hem of her sleep shirt over her head and toss it behind me. Now we’re bare chest against bare chest. Nadia’s lips are back on mine, devouring me. I lay her gently down on the bed and kiss my way down her slender throat toher chest. I kiss and suck and knead her breasts with my tongue and hands. Nadia is writhing against me, pushing her hips into the thickness in my jeans. I move further down her body until I’m at the apex of her luscious thighs. I slide her sleep shorts and panties down her slender legs and toss them behind me. I remove my jeans and boxers and add them to the growing pile of clothes. Nadia’s eyes stay on me the whole time, watching me and it turns me on more.

I crawl my way up Nadia’s body, stopping for a moment to kiss the slight swell of her belly. Nadia grips my hair when my lips brush against her stomach and a groan escapes my throat. I continue kissing my way up her body, lavishing every inch of her skin. Nadia opens her legs for me and my hardness brushes against her heated core. A shuddering breath escapes both of us as her heat wraps around my shaft and for once in my life, I feel complete.

I kiss Nadia and bring us to the edge of bliss before slowing down and drawing out our orgasms. We’re a mess of sweaty limbs, racing hearts and satisfying moans as her hips meet mine thrust for thrust and I can’t hold off any longer.

“Come for me, Pulchra.” I drive in harder until Nadia squeezes me tightly and releases a long moan. I follow right behind her into heaven and bliss.

Once I get my bearings back, I lay down next to Nadia and pull her against my chest. She rests her head against my racing heart and I kiss the top of it. “Will it always be like this?” Nadia asks.

“I hope so,” I answer honestly. “I don’t ever see myself doing this with anyone else. In all transparency, I never thought I would ever have sex.”

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