Chapter 31
Alfie
Ever since I’d shifted, my dragon had been pushing at me to get closer to Blaze. The annoying thing was thatIwanted to be closer to Blaze, too. And, since we both wanted it, I didn’t see why we shouldn’t.
That was why I’d shifted and flown around the outside of the castle, following our bond until I could tell what room he was in. Landing had been a bit awkward. I wasn’t used to being so big and I had more than my usual number of feet. It wasn’t my fault I couldn’t control them all.
But once I was in the room and in my human form again, I could touch Blaze. I could hold him like I hadbefore.
And the pressure inside me that had always driven me to be closer, closer, closer to Blaze, that grew until I thought I’d burst.
Now I could name that pressure – my dragon – it made sense.
Now I knew why it had been so strong inside me. It was because my dragon was strong. One of the strongest, if my family were right that being a golden dragon was something special.
And now I knew why I had never been able to shift before, even when my dragon was pressing against my skin, even when we were with my- my Blaze. My father had put spells like a cage on me to keep it inside. Madame Trevellian had loosened them. My dragon had broken them.
The thought of Blaze getting hurt had been too much and I’d broken those spells as if they were nothing.
Even though Blaze and I were sat in the way we had been countless times before, this time felt different. It felt more real. I felt as though all of me was there for the first time, and not part of me locked away inside. I hadn’t even realised that was how I felt. I had only known that my stomach felt like it would tear itself in two when I had to walkaway from Blaze, and it would rip itself apart when we kissed, too.
When Blaze turned in my arms and kissed me, his soft lips pressing against my own so sweetly, so demandingly, I felt the familiar surge inside me. Only this time I knew what it was. My dragon was pressing up inside me, wanting to get out.
Or… not out. It wasn’t bursting out of me. It was just pressing me to dosomething.
Blaze’s tongue slid into my mouth and I tasted him again. His favour was deeper and richer than ever, now that I could taste it with my dragon’s senses. He was intoxicating.
My hands pulled him closer to me. I wanted to pull him against me, fuse myself to him, take him, mark him as mine.
I broke our kiss suddenly and leaned away from Blaze. My hands were on his hips, holding him close and pressing his little ass down on my erection, but at least we weren’t kissing any longer.
“Alfie? What’s the matter? Don’t you like kissing me any more?”
I was panting like I’d run a mile. My head felt fuzzy. All I wanted was my Blaze. The only thing I could think about was him.
“Blaze, you’re my mate,” I said as it finally clicked into place.
He didn’t say anything. I looked at him, swallowing down my panic.
“You don’t want to be my mate?”
“Oh, my darling, I do want to be your mate. Is that what you want? You can say no. I know your family don’t like me—”
I snarled, which was a totally new experience for me. “They will love you. I want you, Blaze. I only want you.”
I was already kissing him as I said that last sentence, taking his mouth, exploring it with my tongue, holding his head in place and rocking my hips up to meet his.
Somehow, I ended up on my back, laying down on the bed with Blaze sprawled on top of me. I was naked, since I had stripped in order to shift, and I was wrestling Blaze’s clothes off.
As soon as I flung the last of his clothes over the side of the bed, I rolled on top of him, pinning him beneath me. He looked so beautiful, his fiery red hair full of reds and browns and golds. His eyes captivated me. I wanted to stay there and just lookat him, to study every inch of him, but I wanted to make love to him, too. I wanted it all.
“Alfie? Are you sure about this?”
“I love you, Blaze.”
His smile made something in my chest flip. It was so sweet, so pure.
“I love you, too, my darling. Are you sure you’re not going to be hurt? No more bursting?”