Page 137 of Tainted Romance

Good. I could go back to Allie. I reached out for her and found her easily.

Why would he do that to me? I don’t get him. I hate this. I hate him more. No, that’s a lie. I’m in love with him. Zane Harris will be the death of me.

She reached out for a shot.

Ok, backup plan. He doesn’t want me. What do I do? Run? Leave him behind? I could. He will treat me hot and cold for another two years, then I could leave. He won’t want me then like he doesn’t want me now.

Could I survive another two years of dealing with him? I barely survived this year. I told him I loved him. That wasn’t enough. He doesn’t want me. And I won’t be some, thing, he has to put up with.

He doesn’t want me, fine. I’ll leave. He will be glad to see the back of me.

She pushed herself away from the bar and got up.

Why does the thought of never seeing him again, hurt so bloody much? Why can’t he just love me back?

Alpha Harris could release me early. He doesn’t want me near Zane. He doesn’t want me as his son’s mate. He would release me, and I could go.

Leave.

Zane.

Mom.

Dad.

Jace.

School.

Everything behind.

Leaving Zane, could I do that? Why did my heart have to clench like that? Why did it have to hurt so much?

Ok, think, Allie. You love him. He doesn’t love you. I loved him enough to let him go. That’s what he wanted, wasn’t it? For me to let him go?

Her hand nervously opened the car door.

I could do that. I could let go of him, for him. Alpha Harris would release me. Zane could go back to his women and do whatever he wants, and I could… what? Live the rest of my life with a hole in my heart?

Well, there was no other option. That was what I was faced with.

She put the car in drive.

Tomorrow I’ll let him go. I’ll ask Alpha Harris to release me. I’ll leave. Zane wants that, but I don’t want that. ZANE WANTS THAT.

I wished I could just stop it. Stop everything. Stop the feelings. Stop the longing. Stop having to face a future without him. I just want it all to stop!

She looked at the dash, she was speeding.

He doesn’t want me. I won’t hang around being unwanted.

He doesn’t want me. She clenched her eyes shut for a second, tears running down her face. I’ll let him go.

I should have never come back to the pack to begin with.

Stupid, Allie! Thinking with my heart, not my head.

My wolf had been numbed, and that wasn’t nearly as painful as the thought of facing a world without Zane, but I would do it. He didn’t love me. Nothing I could do would change his mind. Hadn’t I done everything to try and show him that I was ready to commit?

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