I knew it was stupid. I knew he did it for the club. But there was so many unanswered questions. Like if he did make promises, would he break them like he broke my heart that day?
“Darling you okay?”
I blinked and was back in the moment. “Fine. I just need to…”
He prompted me to continue.
“Cage.” I knew we had to have this discussion. And why I was picking this moment. I don’t know. But I had, and here I was about to have the conversation. “What are we?” I said the words that terrified most males and by the looks on Cage’s face- him as well.
“I’m not asking for a label. But you are acting like I’m your girlfriend. Last time you did that I got hurt.” I pointed out.
He ran his hand through his hair.
“Look I’m not asking to be the mother to your kid or something. I’m not asking to be your wife. I just want to know why the hell you do this.” I waved a hand at him “This is exactly what I’m talking about. Being in my room, worried about me in pain. Like what biker does that!” I said that last part more to myself then him. But he heard it.
“It’s complicated.” He finally blew out and that sent a sad smile across my face.
Complicated. Him and I. That was an understatement.
I nodded my head. “Well in that case, I think you should um treat me like the rest.” I didn’t want that. I didn’t want him to treat me like I was every common girl at the club. But what was the point of thinking he wanted more, when he didn’t.
I expected him to leave. “Ain’t gonna lie to you.” His eyes locked with mine.“Can’t make vows to you. Can’t pretend like I ain’t what I am. I’m a biker. I break the law. And yeah, being with me will most likely put you in danger.” And the list of reasons we shouldn’t be together, was just starting.
He came to a stop in front of me. His knuckles running down my arm.
“But like I said I ain’t gonna lie to you…” he looked me in the eye. “I feel something for you Autumnand fucked if I know what it is. But it scares the shit out of me.” He exhaled sharply. His knuckles pausing on my skin. His eyes still locked with mine. “But something istelling me that the good times will outweigh the storm that is you and I.”
A smart girl would have run. A smart girl would have stared back into his jet-black eyes and tell him he would never have me. But when it came to Cage Hurley, common sense went out the window, and my heart drummed louder. Flooding my body with desire for him. Need for him. To want to believe that a man like him, could love me.
Chapter Thirty Eight
CAGE
My eyes were on her from across the pub. As she stood at the bar, her blonde hair pulled the side. A smile on her face as she spoke with Lit. They seemed to be getting on lately. Jealousy didn’t flare through my veins as I watched her talk to him, because I knew come tonight, she would be in my bed.
“You’re playing with fire.”
My eyes went off Autumn and on to Wild.
“What old man?”
He leaned forward his bleary eyes locked with mine.
“Autumn and your obsession with her. It’s playing with fire. You know she is considered off limits to anyone. You’ve got a death wish.”
Perhaps I did have a death wish but dying over Autumn, would be a fucking welcomed death in my books. I saw her move towards me out of the corner of my eye. Wild noticed it too and muttered that I was a mad man under his breath, As I opened my arm up, for her to sit on my lap.
“How’s the party darling?” I said as she sat down on my lap.
Wild got out of the booth, leaving, causing Autumn to frown. Her emerald eyes locking with mine.
“Do you think people are acting weird and when I say people, I mean members?”
I shrugged, picking up my cigarette from the ashtray.
“Cage, I’m serious. People are looking at me like…”
I looked at her. “Like what?” Was someone making her uncomfortable? Was it Lit?