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I laughed, and we walked up the hallway. “Come on Hudson, you’ll say that till you find her.” I say as he unlocked his door. I noted that he’s only four doors up from the main rooms. But then my words ring in my ears again. What happened when Hudson found the love of his life? Why did that make my stomach unsettled? Why did I feel sick by it?

“I did.” Hudson said, and the door swung open. “But I let her go.” And he had this dim smile on his face. “You weren’t any girl to me sweetheart,” and reached out tucking a stray hair behind my ear. “you were the girl. My only.”

I didn’t know what to say. I wanted to tell him, he’d move on. But I didn’t know how to say that because I didn’t just move on from Hudson. I had to die, and get a new heart. A new heart that was fluttering at Hudson right now.

I brushed past him, entering the room, and grabbing the remote, going to sit on his bed. I acted like he had said nothing. I think he was thankful for that.

“Before we drop this subject completely.” He said standing near the bed. “You still spin my world Gabriella. Even if I can’t have you, you’ll always be it for me.” His iron grey eyes locked with mine, and my heart is fluttering again, and I gripped the remote tighter. Don’t do it to me Hudson. Don’t poison myself against myself. A pill would numb all this. That thought alone made me square back my shoulders and look at the television.

I had no Maddox making sure I stayed clean. Hell I had no real reason to stay clean, because Maddox was the real reason I stayed clean.

“I don’t have that log in shit.” Hudson says lighting up a cigarette, bringing me to the moment. I glanced at him. Frowning. “For that net shit.” He blew out smoke.

“Netflix.” I correct him, and put my hand out for the cigarette, which he gives me.

I log in with my details, and sit on the bed. Noticed how Hudson walked right around to the other side.

I don’t think he meant for things to get tight and tense but they had. It wasn’t the fact he said I was the reason his world spun, or any of that. It was because I thought of drugs instead of facing my feelings for Hudson.

And that scared me.

Hudson groaned. When I selected New Moon. I looked at him. “I said not Twilight.”

“Fucking brought this pack early on in the night, and will be through it by dawn.” He said looking at his cigarette pack. Like chain smoking to get through this movie was the only option.

I laughed and pressed play.

“Never fucking understood it.” He snapped, and I glanced back at him. “Why she went for the vampire and not the wolf. The wolf protects. The vampire sucks blood. Never made fucking sense.”

I suppressed my smirk. Because he actually had paid attention to these movies all those years ago.

HUDSON

She fell asleep on my arm. Never seen a more beautiful sight then Gabriella asleep on me. She made cute noises all morning. She passed out by four am and it was a little after ten when I came to, and she was still asleep on my arm. Though when I woke up, I had my other arm wrapped around her, woke up just in time, to move myself away from her, so she didn’t feel how hard I was.

She stirred on my arm, and my eyes went back to the image of her in her bra early this morning, when she stripped in front of me. Didn’t say anything at the time. But I saw the scar on her chest. I was putting things together, her words in the chapel, the scar. Something had happened to Gabriella that nearly cost her, her actual life.

“What time is it?” She mumbled into my arm. I heard pain in her voice.

“After ten darling.”

She groaned. “I was meant to cook breakfast.”

“The boys can fucking get their own food.”

She turned on my arm, looking at me. “If I had that attitude none of your men would ever get fed.” She then yawned. “I feel like I’ve barely slept.”

“Cause you have barely slept.” I said, pulling my arm out from under her. “Which is why, you’re going back to sleep and I’m getting up to tell the men to fucking get their own food.” She yawned again before she could argue, proving my point. I lean over the bed kissing her forehead. “Go back to sleep darling.”

I then regret it, as soon as it is done. I shouldn’t have fucking kissed her forehead like she was mine.

Her lips twitched up. “Thanks Hudson.” My name off her lips was always my weakness, even though she wasn’t moaning it, it still fucking got to me. She could tame me with my own name, could be belting a man brains out, but if she said my name, I’d stop mid punch.

I forced an uneasy smile, cause I thought my slip up would have spooked her. But it hadn’t. Fucking got lucky.

She yawned again and then pulled back the blankets, slipping in between them. “Don’t let me sleep past one. I want to see Maddox.”

“Yeah righto darling.” I shrugged my vest on and walked out, could hear the men from here. I hoped I had closed the door before Gabriella heard them.

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