Page 15 of Screwed By My Roommate

Penny

Idon’t think I’ve slept at all. I’m embarrassed, pissed, and hurt. For a brief moment, the world righted itself. Jace was kissing me. His hard cock was rubbing against me. He wanted me. Jace Riggs wanted me. I thought all the pain was finally worth it until he broke the kiss. The most amazing kiss I’ve ever had. He told me to go to bed. He fucking yelled. He rejected me and this time it hurt more than any time before. This time my heart shattered, and my hope was stolen.

I glance at my phone and see it’s still early, but it’s pointless laying here any longer. I need coffee and I need to escape. I’ll go stay with my parents. At this point, I’d rather deal with my mom than look at Jace.

I know Jace won’t be up for a while, so I pad out to the kitchen in my oversized shirt and brew a pot of coffee. With the lack of sleep and emotions I’m unable to control, I need caffeine. Well, I really need a few shots, but I’ll settle for the coffee for now.

I pour my mug of coffee and inhale before taking a small sip, before placing it down on the counter.

My eyes close and I wish I would’ve stayed in my room. I don’t even need to turn around to know that Jace is now standing in the kitchen. Tears fill my eyes and I refuse to allow him to take another piece of me. I refuse to acknowledge him.

“Penny,” he whispers.

I close my eyes tighter, fighting against the tears. His deep voice is like salt on my wounds.

He doesn’t get the hint or doesn’t care as he moves to stand in front of me. I don’t lift my eyes to him, but I feel his body heat and smell his familiar scent. A tear escapes and I hate myself for allowing it in front of him.

He grabs my chin, forcing me to look at him. It’s impossible to hide my feelings. The pain, the anger, the rejection. He sees it all and I try to pull out of his hold, but he won’t allow it. He’s searching my face, studying me, and I fucking hate it.

“Penny, look at me,” he whispers.

“Fuck you, Jace.”

I hear him groan as his hold on my chin tightens before he lets go. I try to step around him, but he grabs my hands and pins them behind my back. He pushes me against the counter and this time I do look up at him.

For the first time since he walked into the kitchen my eyes meet his and I notice the regret in them. I also see the heat.

“I’m sorry,” he whispers, keeping his eyes on mine.

My body betrays me and heats at his words, but I lift my chin holding on to the hurt. “Great, let go.”

He moves his face closer to mine and I suck in a breath. My nipples harden against his bare chest and my pussy is beginning to ache with need. I can’t think straight when he’s this close to me.

“You think it was easy for me to let you go last night? You think it isn’t crushing me to see the hurt in your eyes?” he asks, searching my face. Before I can reply, he continues. “I want you, Penny. I’ve wanted you since we were kids. I pushed you away, but not because I wasn’t aching for you because I was, I am. I did it because of Henry. He’d never accept this and after everything he’s done for me, I couldn’t act on my feelings.”

My eyes swim with tears as they bounce between his. For the first time ever, I see the same pain in his eyes I see in my own. The longing. The need. The desire. But he’ll never hurt my brother, instead, he hurts me.

“I can’t do this, Jace. I can’t fight how I feel anymore, so I’m leaving,” I whisper, glancing at the floor.

“What? Didn’t you just hear me?” he questions, tightening his hold on my wrists.

My eyes lift to his and I nod. “I heard you, I’ll just never settle for second best.”

“Fuck this,” he whispers, crashing his lips to mine.

I sigh as his strong lips work mine over and when his tongue touches mine, my body comes alive. He keeps my hands behind my back with one hand and uses the other to grab ahold of my hair. He turns my head, deepening the kiss and I let out a soft moan.

Just as I’m melting against him, he breaks the kiss and my heart squeezes.

Only this time he doesn’t tell me to go. This time he lets go of my wrists and sinks his fingers into my hair. “You didn’thearme. I said I want you, Penny. I said I ache for you. I said I have feelings for you. You didn’t hear me because I’m done fighting this. I’m done causing us both so much pain.”

My eyes swim with tears as I search his face. “Jace,” I whisper.

He lifts me, sitting me on the island and a mischievous grin hits his lips. His hands slide up my thighs and when he hits the bottom of my shirt, he grabs it, lifting it over my head. I’m exposed to him, and his gaze is burning my skin as he takes me in. He peeks up at me and the heat I see in his eyes has me biting my bottom lip.

“You’re fucking beautiful, Penny,” he roughly says.

He keeps his eyes locked on mine as he pushes my legs apart. My breathing is heavy as his fingers hook into my panties and he slides them down my legs, dropping them to the floor. His hands glide up my legs, pushing them as far apart as they’ll go. I want to look down, see his hands on my body, but my eyes are locked on his.

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