Page 65 of Rise By Sin

But Colt was safe. He was being guarded by the security team that Ky had paid for, and from what he’d told me, they were the best. Kylan was with him so I knew he wasn’t alone, and I hadactually slept soundly again. I felt good, and who wouldn’t with the mountain of perfect man I had beneath me, A mountain of perfect man who loved me.

When he opened his mouth and sucked in the finger I’d been holding to his lips every single nerve ending inside of me seemed to come alive and shoot right to my core. He sucked on my finger and my clit throbbed as my breaths sped up.

“Mace,” I moaned as I looked into his deep, dark eyes and pleaded with him to see what I needed. Once upon a time I’d have just told him, but I’d lost almost all of my confidence since those days, especially when it came to sex.

“Do you need to come, baby?” he asked with a small smirk crossing his face.

“So much,” I gasped as I felt his hands wrap loosely around my hips, then run sensually up my sides under the sweater I wore.

“Strip for me.” I hesitated for a second. It wasn’t that I didn’t trust him, but he didn’t really know how messed up I was when it came to sex, and Mason used to thrive on his dominance and power over me when I gave him my submission. Would he get too carried away after so long apart? Would I be able to speak up if it all became too much? “Ava, look at me,” he commanded and I instantly acquiesced. His hands moved back to my hips and he just held me. “Tell me why you just panicked.”

“I…I didn…”

“And don’t try to lie to me. I know you too well, don’t I?”

“Yes damn it,” I sighed as I rolled my eyes at him. “I just…I’m different. I can’t…not like before. I can’t do that anymore.”

“Do what, sweetheart?”

“Any of it,” I uttered as I slumped forwards and wrapped my hands as far as I could get them around him. I just needed to feel close to him. “I still need you to be in control. I…it feels good to just let go and do as you tell me, but I…the pain I used to love. That’s gone. You can’t bind me in any way or I’ll freak out too. I told you I’m a mess.”

“Do you trust me, Ava?” he asked as he held me tightly against his chest and tucked my head under his chin.

“Always,” I agreed easily.

“Then trust me to know what you can handle. This isn’t a scene. Your mine now, and while I still crave some control, this isn’t a scene at the club. I just want to make love to you. Can you trust me to do that?” he asked.

“Yes, Mace. I want that.”

“Me too. I’ve waited far too long to have your perfect body pressed against mine again,” he said as he kissed the top of my head.

“I’m sorry…”

“No. No apologies, but next time you’re worried you tell me, or whoever you’re with, right away. Okay? We won’t ever be able to make anything work if you can’t talk to me and Jack.”

“I know,” I nodded. “I’ll try.”

“Do you want to just get cleaned up and find something to eat instead? It’s fine if you do. We don’t need to rush anything.”

“No.” I lifted my head and smiled as I took him in all over again. He was so handsome. I was pretty sure he had gotten even more so with age. “I want this, Mason. I need you.”

“Good, because I really fucking need you too, but if we’re doing this, you’re going to be open with me. If things are going to fast, or you feel worried or uncomfortable you’re going to tell me right away and we’ll slow down, or stop, okay? I need you to give me this, baby, because I would never be able to get over hurting or scaring you. Can you do that for me? For us?”

“Yes. I promise,” I agreed.

“Then I believe I gave you an order. Show me that sexy little body, Ava,” he said, the smile back on his face as he slid both of his hands behind his head and just watched me as I rose up onto my knees. It wasn’t the best position for my back or legs, but I wasn’t in pain.

Trying not to allow my own insecurities about my scars and too thin body to take from the moment I slowly stripped off the sweater I wore, trying hard to make it look sexy, but I knew my movements, especially pulling over my head were a little awkward and stilted. I threw the sweater aside and dared a glance to Mason, relieved to see he didn’t look put off. Next I reached back to unclip my bra. The cups dropped free and I slid it down my arms and tossed it aside. This time when I looked to Mason his eyes were heavier and filled with heat as he seemed to take me in. It gave me a confidence boost, and actually made me feel sexy in his eyes.

“Perfect,” he said as he moved his arms and grabbed my hips. He picked me up with ease and sat me on the bed beside him, then he sat up and leaned in close to me.

“Lie down,” he ordered and I complied. My breaths were come faster now and I could feel my whole chest rising and falling more acutely than ever. I knew my panties were wet and I had toclamp my legs together as I tried to relieve some of the tension mounting at my core.

“Such a good girl,” he whispered as he leaned down and toyed with my left nipple as his lips pressed softly to mine. He knew what those words did to me, and I started to writhe as my need only became ore and more desperate for him.

“Open your legs for me, Ava,” he said, almost startling me from the pile of goo he had made me with his languid kisses and gentle caresses.

I saw the satisfaction in his face when I parted my legs, doing as he wanted me to. Then his hand started to slide down to my thigh and I slammed my eyes closed again as desire rushed through me, making me shudder under his touch.

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