Page 36 of Forbidden Love

Ishould have kept walking toward the door, my fingers was so tight around my purse strap as I thought about beating Bianca’s ass for what it was worth. I always pushed any negative thought about her out of my mind because I really loved her. I turned to look at the bitch standing near the middle of her living room.

Her arms was folded across her chest, with a smug look plastered on her face. She tilted her eyes and narrowed her eyes at me.

“You know what?” I smiled at her.

Through the smile, pain clawed its way up my throat.

“Casper always told me that I was better than you. He told me that you wasn’t shit but another hoe looking for a come up.” I chuckled painfully.

“My dad said that if I was to tell you that I was in love with you…you’d lie and say the same then be my bitch. Anything for a better life, instead of working to get the things you desire. Now, I believe him. It’s all crystal clear for me now.” I turned on the balls of my feet, feeling a little better.

“You know…” she said slowly.

“Ramsey always said that I felt better than you!” she spat out.

My blood turned into ice; my feet moved faster than I thought. I dropped my bag and practically flew across the room to beat her ass.

“You stupid ass bitch!”Whap!I open hand smacked her across the cheek.

“You thought you fucking ate?” I stepped back from her to see if she had something to say.

Bianca always talked shit but never could back her mouth up. My vision blurred from the tears building in my eyes.

“You out of all people slept with my nigga? My fucking man? Ramsey!” I asked in disbelief.

Bianca held her bloody lip with wide eyes.

“He was my nigga first, I let you have him; you basically played the front while I was in the backseat. I knew how Ramsey was, you just refused to see the shit. You should be thanking me hoe and?—”

I launched at her, not letting her finish her sentence. We crashed to the floor. She squealed beneath me as my fists landed back-to-back against her face. I didn’t give a damn about her crying and begging for me to stop. I wanted Bianca to feel how she made me felt on the inside. I wanted her to feel every lie, every fake laugh, every backhanded compliment.

I comfortably sat on top of her with my knees on either side of her petite body. My hands went around her throat as I looked into her eyes. I could feel my heart breaking but was numb to all the bullshit.

“You sat across from me every day while I was mourning, knowing what you did.” My voice cracked as the tears rolled down my cheeks.

“You a sick ass bitch! I should fuckin’ kill you.” I squeezed her neck tighter.

Bianca’s eyes popped out of socket as she kicked her legs and scratched at my arms. A knock at the door sounded off, snapping me out of my rage. I froze for a couple of seconds above her as I listened to the knocks sound off again. Slowly, I got off of Bianca, my body trembled as she scrambled backwards. On my way over to the door, I picked up my purse, not bothering to look back at her.

I opened the door, and it felt like time stopped. Ramsey’s mom stood at the door with her arms crossed over her chest with a look of satisfaction on her ugly ass face. Behind her was Bianca’s kids. I got dizzy instantly as shit hit me faster than a train. My mouth opened but no words fell out. I turned my head slowly with disbelief crawling up my spine. Bianca slowly stood up with blood covering her face.

“I hate you but love you for helping me whenever I needed you. You always got in the way. It all started with Ramsey. You got this aura about you, Yeremy…that makes people believe that you’re so sweet and innocent. Yeah, you got a college education, but you are a dummy! I’m not the only one that has had my fair share of having my way when it comes to you.” Bianca spat out of gob of spit mixed with blood on her carpet.

“The fuck y’all just standing there behind ya Nana for? This is grown folks business! Go to your room!” Bianca yelled at her kids, making them jump hard.

“Sorry, Tee Tee.” Bianca’s five-year-old daughter Lee Lee looked up into my eyes.

I looked down at her as my chest constricted for her. I hated that she had to be raised by such a trifling ass momma.

“Lee Lee, never apologize for the actions of others. You didn’t do anything wrong, baby. I love you always. Respect your mom and take your brother to y’all room.” I leaned down to place a kiss on her forehead.

Lee Lee wiped her tears away then turned to grab her little brother’s hand. I leaned down and gave him a quick kiss to his cheek and watched them walk away. Once they was out of earshot, everything inside me collapsed. A small hollow laugh slipped from my throat.

I refused to break in front of Ramsey’s mom, Larella. I didn’t even know why I was still blocking her way in. I stood in the middle of the door frame perplexed as fuck.

“I know it hurts, but the reality of the entire situation needed to hit at some point. You thought I didn’t like you, when in actual reality…I didn’t like how naïve you were for my son. You deserved better, however…my loyalty is always with him, and since he’s not here anymore…it’s with those kids.”

I slowly nodded my head and stepped around her. I didn’t wait to hear the sound of the door closing behind. I walked as fast as I could to my truck. Soon as I got in, my vision blurred with heat and heartbreak. My chest burned as my jaws locked to keep from sobbing. I started my car and peeled off from the curb in desperate need for some kind of relief and comfort.

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