PROLOGUE
Ten Years Ago
Jordan
There’sa strange battle happening in the locker room. The smell of cleaning supplies mixes with Axe body spray and sweat, the latter definitely prevailing. I drop my bag by the bench and take a seat, looking around the mostly empty room.
It’s my first day at training camp with the Grand Marquee Manticores but instead of feeling happy and proud of all my accomplishments so far, I feel … anxious. Like there’s something lurking just around the corner, ready to bring me my downfall.
My phone pings with a text and I take a deep breath, hoping that can will my anxiety away.You got this. Everything will be just fine.
Kick ass, baby brother.
I smile at the text from my sister, Tangela, and feel myself relaxing. My shoulders drop from my ears and I roll away thecrick in my neck. This always helps. Something orsomeonefamiliar to ground me when I feel my world is going to shit.
I’ve always been this walking, talking contradiction. I enjoy my solitude and crave the quiet moments when I’m at home, but I also desperately want to be surrounded by people. I want to go out and make friends, but I dread everything that comes before that. All the awkward conversations and small talk.
I mean, who gives a shit about the weather? It’s Michigan, we get six months of winter, get over it.And then there’s the Midwest niceness ofHow are ya?andOpe, not too bad, how ‘bout yourself?Sometimes, I’d rather hit my head against a brick wall than have to talk to people.
“Hey, how’s it going?” a deep gravelly voice says, and I look up from my phone.
See, pointless small talk.
I already dread being here—not because I hate Traverse City or Michigan, which has always been home to me, but because my anxiety is holding hands with my introverted side and I’m just a walking mess.
I clear my throat and say, “Good, you?”
The six foot five man in front of me is dripping in sweat. He nods his reply at me and moves to take off his equipment. More players trickle in, wearing their full gear, and I start to panic.
Am I supposed to go to a different locker room?
Did I miss something on the schedule?
Am I late?
A bead of sweat drips in my eye and my hand shakes as I reach down to grab my backpack and hightail it out of the room.
“You’re one of the rookies, right?” the same guy asks, and takes a seat next to me.
“Um, yeah. I’m Jordan,” I say, voice a little shaky. “Hill,” I add, knowing that in hockey, a player is usually recognized by his last name rather than his first.
“First day?” he asks and as much as I hate eye contact, I force myself to benormaland make proper conversation. His green eyes are bright, and laser focused on me with so much intensity that I scoot back on the bench a little.
“Yeah,” I say, and all but gulp. This dude is huge and hella intimidating.
“I’m Alex Dionis,” he says and reaches out a large hand for me to shake. I take it weakly and think the name sounds familiar. Then I realize who this guy is. Not only did he go to my high school, but Dionis is the fuckingcaptainof the Manticores. My eyes widen and I try to compose myself. What a poor first impression this must be.
“Nice to meet you, sir.”
He pulls his hand back and there’s a small smile on his lips as he says, “Sir? What am I, forty?”
“No. I don’t know. You’re older than me, at least,” I say, flustered.Nice one Jordan. Very smooth.
“I’m twenty-six, man,” Alex complains, shaking his head at me.
“Did you just say he looks like he’s forty?” another guy asks, sitting down on the other side of me and flashing me a wide smile. His dark blond hair is damp with sweat, and he looks slightly familiar too.
“I didn’t?—“