Page 44 of Chrome

Chapter Fourteen

KOSHA

“No, Onyx. He’s in jail because of me!” I shouted into the phone. I was sitting outside the jail house and unsure of what to do. When I made the decision to abort our baby, that was me cutting ties and moving on. My choice was to save my peace and sanity. He had other women… so I thought, and I didn’t want to deal with that. Now, I was crying in my car with indecisive thoughts.

“God forbid I lay down and get some damn sleep. What the hell happened? Everybody calling with their version of the story, I need to hear it from you.”

“Okay, so I went to get an abortion and cut ties with the nigga. What I saw at his party was good enough for me. I didn’t care for the drama he brought. When I get there, I see one of his homeboys. He told him he was gon’ tell on me like I was some damn child or something. I told him I didn’t give a fuck and fuck Chrome.”

“’Cause yeah,” Onyx chimed.

“Facts. So, the nigga really called his ass and told on me. I’m sitting there waiting to be seen and in strolled this nigga on ten. Bestie, I feared for my muthafuckin’ life when that nigga placed his gun on my knee. I just knew I was a goner.”

Onyx laughed causing me to roll my eyes. She always loved that toxic shit. The niggas that walked the straight and narrow were too boring for her. She wanted somebody to match her crazy.

“I don’t even know why you went down to them people establishment playing. Let’s be real, you wasn’t gon’ get rid of that nigga baby. You love him too much. I know you ain’t admitted it to yourself yet, but everybody can see it and vice versa.”

I was in love with Chrasmere and I knew what all came with dealing with a man younger than me… at least I thought I knew. Not once did that nigga show me he wasn’t all about me. I still didn’t know what was said to the broad at the party, but maybe it wasn’t what I thought it was. He had me so fucked up that I was behaving like I did in my early twenties. Wasn’t shit grown about Kosha Jordan these past few weeks.

“What am I supposed to do, Onyx?”

“Zinc said just wait for him to be released. His aunt Gina is handling it. Friend, you been real dumb since we moved here. What happened to the boss ass bitch that didn’t let a nigga get her off her square?” she asked.

“I can’t even answer that, bestie. That nigga been turning me every way but loose. Can you check on Mel for me? I don’t want to leave and miss him.”

“Yeah. Do me a favor though.”

“What is it?”

“Figure out what your future consists of because at our big age, jumping in and out of relationships ain’t cute. I’ll call you later.”

We hung up and I tossed my phone in my cup holder. The life I wanted was full of peace. No matter where it came from, I just wanted peace. Melanie was starting a journey of her own soonand I hadn’t focused on that once. I’d been so consumed with Chrome that I hadn’t paid attention to my baby.

She wasn’t nasty with me anymore and she was trying to smooth things over between us. I appreciated the effort she was putting in. Although she thought I needed to leave Chrome alone, she hadn’t given me grief about him either lately. She actually confessed she was happy to have a younger sibling as long as I was happy. I wasn’t sure what the hell I was and that was the God honest truth.

All of the problems came into play when Houston brought his stupid ass up here. I truly didn’t understand what his purpose was when he’d already missed out on Melanie’s special day. However, I had something for his ass. Reaching for my phone, I called up my brothers. They’d been waiting to lay hands on him. Davis was the hot head out of him and Alex. He was gon’ drop everything if it involved me.

“I’m working, sis. Can I call you back?” he answered.

“Uh, yeah. Sure.”

“What’s wrong? Why you sound like that?” Davis was also the most attentive. Without warning, my emotions spiraled out of control. This baby really had me unstable as fuck. I cried and he immediately went to firing off more questions. “What the hell going on, KoKo? I need to come to the Lake?”

“No, no. I’m fine.”

“Don’t insult my intelligence, sis. You crying for a reason.”

“I’m crying ‘cause this dumbass pregnancy got me all out of whack. I’m really fine,” I tried lying but couldn’t even finish the sentence before more tears fell.

“The fuck yo’ old ass doing getting pregnant? Is it Houston’s?” I was sure that was coming again from Alex as well whenever he found out.

“I met a guy and we just been involved. You know, just having fun.”

“Too much fun if you ask me. What’s the nigga name?”

“Chrome.”

“I know you ain’t bring yo’ ass up here and get pregnant by no lil’ ass boy. KoKo, he like twenty.”