Today they tried to break me.
They tried and succeeded, but I didn’t let them see it.
Lady Marlowe decided to use my naked body as it pleased her the most. She made me crawl on all fours around the room, for all the guests to see. And when that wasn’t entertaining to her anymore, she burned me with her cigarettes.
But she didn’t touch my belly. My Aurelia. She didn’t touch her.
Tears sting my eyes before falling down my cheeks as images of my mother’s torment fog my vision. How her dignity was stripped away with each cigarette butt that touched her skin. How they laughed as she suffered.
In this moment I swear to myself, I won’t just kill them. I’ll make them suffer, just as they did to her.
July 15th
I can still hear her raucous laugh as she stood over me. The sizzling sound as she stubbed out her cigarette on my naked back. The overwhelmingpain and the metallic taste of blood as I bit down on my lip to stifle my cries.
August 2nd
They didn’t call me today. They left me alone in my room, and it’s the only moment I’ve had to imagine my beautiful Aurelia. How her laugh will sound or if she’ll have my vibrant red hair.
She’ll be brilliant. A bundle of life. I’ll make sure of it.
She’s my purpose, my strength to keep fighting.
She’s going to make a wonderful woman.
Her determination and hope intertwines with mine, igniting a fire in my core—a burning desire to ensure her dreams weren’t in vain.
With each word my resolve grows stronger.
I will not let her down.
September 17th
They think I’m weak. They think they can break me.
But I’ll never give up. No matter how much pain I have to endure, I’ll go through it for my daughter.
I want to see her smile. I want to hold her and promise her everything will be all right. That her life will be full of joy and love.
I will endure anything for her sake.
October 8th
If there is one thing I have learned through all this, it’s that love is not just a fleeting emotion or a simple connection between two people. It is a force powerful enough to withstand any heartbreak. Any cruelty. And it is that love which sustains me now, as I hold onto the hope that one day, no matter how faraway it may seem, Aurelia and I will be together against all this.
October 19th
How much longer can I survive this?
The days are shorter now. The sun doesn’t shine as brightly as it once did.
But I have to be strong. For my Aurelia. For the love she gives me, even if she’s not here yet.
For the hope that she will one day live the life I dreamed of.
November 21st
Today I made a promise. I looked into those green orbs and promised her I’d fight for us.